Where do you go from now.
ahh.. just checked out NUS and I was rejected =( now all my hopes are pinned on SMU and I am hoping somehow by some miracle, I'd be able to get in, even tho it's my 2nd choice which I got interviewed for..! at this point I don't mind Economics and would jump for joy if I get accepted cos SMUs like my dream school..=/
I've been thinking again. Where do you go from now.
Of late, life's boring. everyday work 8.30am to 6.30pm. so there's like so little hours of time I can have as leisure. Go home after dinner and perhaps helping my maid with the dishes or whatever (to lessen the workload), alr 8 plus 9. Yep, lif'e's so unfulfilling but of course I'm thankful and I know I'm very blessed.
But I'm 20 this year and honestly, I have not made much achievements. It's like my expectations of life aren't met. I'd have this thinking of "you only live for once, one chance to make an impact or live your life to the fullest"! at the back of my mind, but it's not how I'm living my life now.. there's so many things I wanna do but didn't or have to give up. Like piano/learning music, mom said she'd sponsor me to let me learn but end up she kinda back out. I think yeah lah, it'd be absolutely befitting to call my life as a "standstill". because I am not sure where I'd go and how it'd be after that. I guess many of my peers may feel this too because at this point of our lives, it's just confusing. plus we gotta make a decision that may change our life! OH HELP!
anyway, I just wanna complain (yep I love to complain at my blog =B) or state the point that if you overdo something you really/marginally like too much, "you'd burn out". I was burnt out and I guess now, Bryan too, of guitarplaying. For me, of late, I've been doing my cg's birthday cards and the "burn" was felt again. The last time I buay tahan I complained to Grace but she just gave me a "prep talk"?
About cardmaking, at first I REALLY DIDN'T mind making them. but after awhile, it just gets sian and unsatisfying. Firstly, it's very annoying how I don't get much support from my cgm or cgl. I know it's annoying to sign so many cards at one go, but do they really think I want that? I understand my cgm always wanna have fun or catch up with each other when they see each other (after all they meet only occasionally each week?). But is it THAT HARD to sign the cards? I literally sometimes have to beg them lorh. they'd say "tomorrow tomorrow" or "next week next week" after I have said my "pleases". I'm like so sick of it. I have to do the cards, do the printing, do the chasing and deal with this shit. and it's like I don't know, they just like to ask me to do and I felt like they never provided support. like nobody suggested what the birthday person likes. nobody cared. they just leave it to me. and the materials all that I just have to buy myself or ask for reimbursement. nobody from the "cg mgt" even offered reimbursement or something until we ask for it. last time I will willingly pay for the materials/printing for the cards, but now, the "passion"/"interest" just waned so much. I guess maybe Irene opted for the "transfer" in responsibilities because this responsibility just makes you sick of it so much sometimes. But then again, Irene didn't really bear the responsbility of asking people to write the cards so she didn't bear so much of the shit.
Seriously, I don't think it's so tough signing the cards. afterall, REALLY, MOST PPL JUST WRITE "KE QI HUA". like a short "Happy Birthday"/"Continue shining for God!" blah blah. it's kinda like the superficial/no depth kinda "IjustwritebecauseIwasaskedtowrite" wishes. I understand cos I do that sometimes too and it's alright because you're kinda not close to the person so don't know what to write write this lorh. It's really only the close people who really bother to write heartfelt birthday wishes/write more. BUT, if it's such a pain to write the cards (gosh, I have to chase them like chasing for payments or it's as if they're naughty children and I'm their mother, chasing them all day all night long-gosh), we might as well just buy them or something.
Common, it's even harder making the cards. thinking of what to do for a person you might not even know so well. Always slept late cos of the cardmaking. and have to switch between computers because my downstairs com have photoshop and my laptop (which I use more) can't install. Sometimes I wonder why Grace doesn't offer me much support since she can (as a design student) and sometimes I wonder why can't we just buy the bloody cards and spare everyone the trouble (me from making, them from signing so many at one go because I lag in cardmaking)..
ahh, I don't know lah. it's just siannnnn.
and this is the entry where I complain (wanted to do so for so long). but I gotta call Sasha now! Tired~
I've been thinking again. Where do you go from now.
Of late, life's boring. everyday work 8.30am to 6.30pm. so there's like so little hours of time I can have as leisure. Go home after dinner and perhaps helping my maid with the dishes or whatever (to lessen the workload), alr 8 plus 9. Yep, lif'e's so unfulfilling but of course I'm thankful and I know I'm very blessed.
But I'm 20 this year and honestly, I have not made much achievements. It's like my expectations of life aren't met. I'd have this thinking of "you only live for once, one chance to make an impact or live your life to the fullest"! at the back of my mind, but it's not how I'm living my life now.. there's so many things I wanna do but didn't or have to give up. Like piano/learning music, mom said she'd sponsor me to let me learn but end up she kinda back out. I think yeah lah, it'd be absolutely befitting to call my life as a "standstill". because I am not sure where I'd go and how it'd be after that. I guess many of my peers may feel this too because at this point of our lives, it's just confusing. plus we gotta make a decision that may change our life! OH HELP!
anyway, I just wanna complain (yep I love to complain at my blog =B) or state the point that if you overdo something you really/marginally like too much, "you'd burn out". I was burnt out and I guess now, Bryan too, of guitarplaying. For me, of late, I've been doing my cg's birthday cards and the "burn" was felt again. The last time I buay tahan I complained to Grace but she just gave me a "prep talk"?
About cardmaking, at first I REALLY DIDN'T mind making them. but after awhile, it just gets sian and unsatisfying. Firstly, it's very annoying how I don't get much support from my cgm or cgl. I know it's annoying to sign so many cards at one go, but do they really think I want that? I understand my cgm always wanna have fun or catch up with each other when they see each other (after all they meet only occasionally each week?). But is it THAT HARD to sign the cards? I literally sometimes have to beg them lorh. they'd say "tomorrow tomorrow" or "next week next week" after I have said my "pleases". I'm like so sick of it. I have to do the cards, do the printing, do the chasing and deal with this shit. and it's like I don't know, they just like to ask me to do and I felt like they never provided support. like nobody suggested what the birthday person likes. nobody cared. they just leave it to me. and the materials all that I just have to buy myself or ask for reimbursement. nobody from the "cg mgt" even offered reimbursement or something until we ask for it. last time I will willingly pay for the materials/printing for the cards, but now, the "passion"/"interest" just waned so much. I guess maybe Irene opted for the "transfer" in responsibilities because this responsibility just makes you sick of it so much sometimes. But then again, Irene didn't really bear the responsbility of asking people to write the cards so she didn't bear so much of the shit.
Seriously, I don't think it's so tough signing the cards. afterall, REALLY, MOST PPL JUST WRITE "KE QI HUA". like a short "Happy Birthday"/"Continue shining for God!" blah blah. it's kinda like the superficial/no depth kinda "IjustwritebecauseIwasaskedtowrite" wishes. I understand cos I do that sometimes too and it's alright because you're kinda not close to the person so don't know what to write write this lorh. It's really only the close people who really bother to write heartfelt birthday wishes/write more. BUT, if it's such a pain to write the cards (gosh, I have to chase them like chasing for payments or it's as if they're naughty children and I'm their mother, chasing them all day all night long-gosh), we might as well just buy them or something.
Common, it's even harder making the cards. thinking of what to do for a person you might not even know so well. Always slept late cos of the cardmaking. and have to switch between computers because my downstairs com have photoshop and my laptop (which I use more) can't install. Sometimes I wonder why Grace doesn't offer me much support since she can (as a design student) and sometimes I wonder why can't we just buy the bloody cards and spare everyone the trouble (me from making, them from signing so many at one go because I lag in cardmaking)..
ahh, I don't know lah. it's just siannnnn.
and this is the entry where I complain (wanted to do so for so long). but I gotta call Sasha now! Tired~
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