Revelations
It's been a long time since I blogged! so here I am =T
haha. just went back from I-Guides Promo Day where I was Region I/C! hahaha.
Initially, sometimes I regret joining MainComm for I-Guides cos sometimes it really gets me stressed out, like sometimes I screw up and sometimes, I feel like I failed to deliver. for one, I can't lead very well and hold briefings in confidence, and I am so blur and all that.
but after today, I realised it's all good lah cos I learn more about myself and it shows the goodness in people. LOL. Like after SIP I know my communication skills is really CMI. and then being in MainComm, this further proves it. I can't really hold briefings well lah..it's so scary. (I need public speakin lessons!~)
Furthermore I am very blur. like I screwed up lah that time when applying for Police Permit. I can apply on 12th Jan when the event is 7th Jan. so important de thing can also be so blur T.T oh man. I also realised I don't lead/rahrah unless someone else does it first. I am also slow (if say nicely is blur, say not nice is slow!) and this is the case too for my studies. when I study for tests/exams, I can study 1 day,2-3chapters. And my SIP proj I took a week (or less) to do lah! (but its cos I did research). On top of that, I think without speaking, slutter and sometimes I sound dumb or like an airhead. so I can improve on that this 2008 altho I dont know how. hahaha.
Sometimes I wonder if people wonder why I can be maincomm cos I fail to deliver (I also don't know why I was selected leh =/ maybe last packing day I really chiong like a guy LOL) but then now, I guess I have to be confident on where I stand. Like I realised I am hardworking! (yeh!) I do the things people don't do and I don't mind (i.e. picking rubbish- I always do that. that time packing day I pick until knee like got problem sia) so I think I am not equally hopeless! I need to improve on my confidence lah and be more alert or else I will really die in the working world. Like today, I don't even dare speak my idea (about allocation of Maincomm) then at last Rubayn say liao, take all the credit HOOHOH. I should've said it lah and don't doubt myself..=I
yeah lor. I realise I also should thank God lah for all the mistakes I have made which could've got me into trouble as a maincomm (cos I so blur-i.e. the Police Permit!) He was there to make sure I am alright I guess.. and also, I like to thank the I-Guides (think they wouldn't read this but who cares this is my diary- hohoho). those who helped out with their sincere hearts. This year was a bad year for I-Guides bcos alot of cock-ups. like the manufactuer bangseh us then we just packed 10k+ "goodie bag contents" without the bag (put inside magazine).
Originally have 1 Packing Day become like more than 6 days de packing days (some may be half days). really horrible lor. and I think perhaps the I-Guides Camp screwed up too. yeah. the I-Guides din really have fun I think. but some I-Guides still stick with us lah despite these problems, and I am grateful for that. I mean they really gave their time effort and all (some really did lah) so it really touched my heart. [TP lyk to use their students (i.e. use I-Guides pack bags! HAHA free labour ma. just give budget and seal points)]
like I dont know if I am normal I-Guide I would really come and help out anot cos its manual labour leh (maybe I will cos I last year Packing Day chiong like guy haha). and its so tiring lor (I guess depends on my mood haha..and maybe if my friends go or not..?) I think I wouldn't come so much la cos its non-obligatory.. dunno leh. I not in that situation so I don't know. But as a maincomm I like more have to go ma (cos my resp) haha. so yeah lor. some came and I'm thankful for that. I guess in these situations you really see their zhen cheng la.
believe in the goodness in people!! woohoo!
haha.
oh I learned a nice quote today.
Inspired by dreams, Live by reality.
wOahhhhhh~
haha. just went back from I-Guides Promo Day where I was Region I/C! hahaha.
Initially, sometimes I regret joining MainComm for I-Guides cos sometimes it really gets me stressed out, like sometimes I screw up and sometimes, I feel like I failed to deliver. for one, I can't lead very well and hold briefings in confidence, and I am so blur and all that.
but after today, I realised it's all good lah cos I learn more about myself and it shows the goodness in people. LOL. Like after SIP I know my communication skills is really CMI. and then being in MainComm, this further proves it. I can't really hold briefings well lah..it's so scary. (I need public speakin lessons!~)
Furthermore I am very blur. like I screwed up lah that time when applying for Police Permit. I can apply on 12th Jan when the event is 7th Jan. so important de thing can also be so blur T.T oh man. I also realised I don't lead/rahrah unless someone else does it first. I am also slow (if say nicely is blur, say not nice is slow!) and this is the case too for my studies. when I study for tests/exams, I can study 1 day,2-3chapters. And my SIP proj I took a week (or less) to do lah! (but its cos I did research). On top of that, I think without speaking, slutter and sometimes I sound dumb or like an airhead. so I can improve on that this 2008 altho I dont know how. hahaha.
Sometimes I wonder if people wonder why I can be maincomm cos I fail to deliver (I also don't know why I was selected leh =/ maybe last packing day I really chiong like a guy LOL) but then now, I guess I have to be confident on where I stand. Like I realised I am hardworking! (yeh!) I do the things people don't do and I don't mind (i.e. picking rubbish- I always do that. that time packing day I pick until knee like got problem sia) so I think I am not equally hopeless! I need to improve on my confidence lah and be more alert or else I will really die in the working world. Like today, I don't even dare speak my idea (about allocation of Maincomm) then at last Rubayn say liao, take all the credit HOOHOH. I should've said it lah and don't doubt myself..=I
yeah lor. I realise I also should thank God lah for all the mistakes I have made which could've got me into trouble as a maincomm (cos I so blur-i.e. the Police Permit!) He was there to make sure I am alright I guess.. and also, I like to thank the I-Guides (think they wouldn't read this but who cares this is my diary- hohoho). those who helped out with their sincere hearts. This year was a bad year for I-Guides bcos alot of cock-ups. like the manufactuer bangseh us then we just packed 10k+ "goodie bag contents" without the bag (put inside magazine).
Originally have 1 Packing Day become like more than 6 days de packing days (some may be half days). really horrible lor. and I think perhaps the I-Guides Camp screwed up too. yeah. the I-Guides din really have fun I think. but some I-Guides still stick with us lah despite these problems, and I am grateful for that. I mean they really gave their time effort and all (some really did lah) so it really touched my heart. [TP lyk to use their students (i.e. use I-Guides pack bags! HAHA free labour ma. just give budget and seal points)]
like I dont know if I am normal I-Guide I would really come and help out anot cos its manual labour leh (maybe I will cos I last year Packing Day chiong like guy haha). and its so tiring lor (I guess depends on my mood haha..and maybe if my friends go or not..?) I think I wouldn't come so much la cos its non-obligatory.. dunno leh. I not in that situation so I don't know. But as a maincomm I like more have to go ma (cos my resp) haha. so yeah lor. some came and I'm thankful for that. I guess in these situations you really see their zhen cheng la.
believe in the goodness in people!! woohoo!
haha.
oh I learned a nice quote today.
Inspired by dreams, Live by reality.
wOahhhhhh~
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