Death Bus Elmo

it's not Death Cab Cutie I felt today but Death Bus Elmo.. MWAHAS

today's officially like one week past ever since being attached to DaimlerChrysler..

at first I thought "WAH! Mercedes Benz co.! not bad!" and my friends all have a good perception of that co.. but after working there, I felt that its so ordinary. and my workload suckingly does not involve my area of study and its so boring..I seriously think some internship jobs is do sai kang one. lyk clear backlog. or admin stuffs. or for cheap labor. but of cos the co.'s disadv is that they have to train the noobs. so ultimately, its a give and take kinda thing..? it depends, I guess.

on my first day of job everything looks so high class, we even got a Corp Gift (a mug). but on day 2 I was already thinking "omg. is this what I'm gonna do for 2 more mths!! @_@" then I became so fascinated that the office ppl could survive it..its like so sleepy. everytime I walk past it seems like they are so jing shen. my big conclusion (which I made long ago in Citibank, but then, reiterate here)- STUDYING IS WAY BETTERR!!

at first it was really nothing to do after I finished my first task and thus I brought my Iguides Recruitment Plan to do (luckily!) I kinda did the proposal's most parts and suprisingly it isnt that bad I guess because I based it on my old school work WHAHA. anyway, its a smart use of time lah or else I'd be so bored to death! when I had nothing to do, I felt that I was being irresponsible if I just slacked ard. (besides, I dun wanna be marked down!)

so I asked my colleagues if they had work for me to do.. and I wanted to at least show that I am not taking things for granted ? (like just becos my supervisor isn't here doesn't mean I can slack)

but dammit lah..

today kena from my supervisor because of that. cos I went ard (only 2 colleagues lor) to ask if they had work for me when he was away.

then my supervisor kinda say I lyk throw face for him cos it doesnt reflect well on him. In a way, I have thought of this before (like it came across my mind) but I felt compelled to ask so I brushed it off bcos I don't wanna look like I got nothing to do, you know? at least if I asked they say "no work" means I have so-called, permission to slack. I mean, seriously what he want me to do sit there and sleep openly? stare into the email inbox and daydream? or he want me to go home like one of my colleague did when the supervisor is away?

I'm just being.. accountable. but he was insulted. he said I wu ru him and that I am afterall his supervisor. wth. I was not being disrespectful in any way. in fact, I felt weird to call him by name so I called him Mr Xia (so formal) and I brought him mooncake!! >_<

for me, I felt that I can never communicate to him, that I cant have a nice working r/s with him (like those can joke kind) and I felt no matter what I do, like even if I did my best, I think he would still at most grade me okay or bad, cos he seems like he doesnt bother.. =( like he just went off without signing my attendence thing.

he's so distant man. even his desk is faraway, which means I have to walk to him everytime I wanna ask qn..=/ then when its lunch and all, I also just go because Joyce (my beloved NP intern fren! <3>

hais.like totally abit don't know what to do..

anyway, after his feedback I became emotional and cried man.. but I told myself it's okay and that its part and parcel of life..but then I was really affected for awhile but I told myself to concentrate on my work because I need to send out the update by today (every friday)- I do like scheduling of projs for employees. then when I enquired somemore, I pointed out a mistake.. and he said thanks. that at least, made a difference "to balance things out" I think, so I was abit relieved that at least something good happened.

then when going home that time I went to Funan to find DI to say hi. then Tajjlee called me then I went off.. then I wandered around to find a bus stop with 197 to take to my cg outreach location, Mandarin Gardens.

so I ended up walking to Clarke Quay area.. then I missed a 197 while waiting at the traffic light.. waited for the bus and noticed 2 Japanese ladies looking lost. so I went up to them to help (cos I wan to be a friendly Singaporean!LOL), but I din really understand them..they pointed to Clarke Quay so I guess they wanna go there. but I dunno how to go oso LOL (altho go b4) so I say the river there (which it is right?) and luckily I din miss a bus..

BUT WTH THE BUS CAME 30mins later kind! and because I stood up to help them, I gotta stand till the bus came, then when the bus came it was crowded and I've got no seat!! so I stood up THROUGHOUT THE FRIGGIN LONG JOURNEY till at Parkway there.. then I was in a bad mood lah bcos stand so long..=/ I guess I do have a temper sometimes afterall.

on the bus, a bus conductor came and he was real friendly and all greeting everyone a thanks. but he got cursed at for doing his job when he told nicely to a rather old man to get down cos he dun haf the ticket wif him. I felt sorry for him cos he's doing his job! I guess its like that lah. sometimes you don't get what you ought to/deserve, or you get bullied (I'm not saying I am one of them lah)

so when I FINALLY reach Mandarin Gardens, I was abit pissed off because I dont know where to go and then the security guard was like testing my patience. so when I reached they were playing some commercial for mooncake game and I joined Weijie, Reno and Stella's grp.. I was quite unwilling to participate kind at first cos I was still "pissing off" LOL. but later I kinda lightened up and participated. I wanted to be a narrator so I wouldnt dance like the Mocca ad girls. gosh. but I was a bad narrator lol!

on my way home I admired the street lights while enjoying the peace with music. Japanese songs seem to strike a chord in me nowadays. they're just so my kinda song lol.esp those Pinwen introduced/sent. then I passed by KC. got some KC students going home at ard 9plus.so late! I wonder what they're doing.like what activity man. they were still walking out from the school at this hour..

then as usual take 60/21 back will be super crowded. some malay aunties wanna come up but no space so they complain then the bus driver ask em to move back. I felt in-tune with the bus driver lol and wanted to say "everyone want to go home one! just move back so everyone can board and go home early to rest!!"

actually this reminds me of another bus uncle (bus 60/21 again) who din open the door for ppl (the bus was quite pack but the door can still open) because there was another bus behind. and some ppl cursed him (see! its like that one-saddddd!) they just din understand his actions. I guess its like that, ppl outside the door, ppl from the outside looking in, will not understand unless they're inside themselves. I felt sorry for him..

oh ya, I dreamt of my crush again lol. I dreamt he knows I like him. then I dont know what happened. oh well. but I asked myself do I still like him and I think I don't give a damn anymore lol.

haha. and this entry's title is something I thought of when I'm the bus home.