Can we make a difference?

♥♥ PHOTOS GALORE!! ♥♥

The peach family- the fun moments we had! =) YATTA~!

The Strawberries- We'd be there for you!
dedicated to Yvonne.. =) tough times we may have, but we can go thru it together as a cg and family!

The Ex-KCians- Tracy, Sasha, Chunnie and Me

bye Sasha and Chunnie! =) be safe!

Strawberries in Action! (CUTE TO DEATH CAREBEAR and my grumpy face- so squidward, I know)

Grace (CGL), me, carebear! and Sasha (my MOMO DEAR!)
.. do I look like I'm Grace's sister?

* MUACKZ *

Future Carebear Ambassadors!
fatty arms I have! T.T

Bye MOMO! Take carebear! with you!~

Yay! Guess where I am? Answer? one of the CMM rooms!

today's service was great.. it was very relevant to me. it was about remembering the greatness/goodness/faithfulness of God. it was like SO for me lah..cos for me, I tend to forget all of that of God because I have serious STM. sometimes I wonder if my STM has got anything to do with my childhood anot. like maybe bcos I have a rather sad childhood, perhaps that's why I do not wanna remember stuffs. but I think my childhood also isnt that bad as compared to other people.. =)

it's like amazing and I think its a personal testimony too of how much I have changed. like from the angsty "I wanna rebel" teenager who thinks about death and "I wanna act cool" stuffs, I have pratically like become, I dunno, quite a nun? (ok not that kua zhang la)

but I am so different from the person I thought I'd become.. and thinking back, I think my Year 1 crush made a difference in my life. it seems like my petphrase for encouraging people is "jiayou" and recently I realised it was used because he used it to encourage me for my accounting paper (and thats why I like him lah eventually) and now, I am like encouraging people with that constantly. though a small act, I think its nice and perhaps it can make a difference xD it's like passing on the encouragement and uh, love? =)

and so, I am thankful to him in that sense..

and this so reminds me of Campus Crusade I went @ TP. the card I randomly picked was "Making a Difference"..it's oh, so lovely! like pratically can EMO on the spot lah.

anyway, today at church Yvonne was saying she's tired and all, with all her responsibilites she have to deal with, having to juggle two jobs, her bf and her brother. (I think thats the thing with living with someone. you get tired of each other and stuffs. it happens. like what Peizhen said, she was frustrated with her roommate when she was in China so much to the extent they hate each other/don't talk to each other? ) feel quite sad she have to deal with so many things in her life, so I'm encouraging her.

and I hope she'd not be so tempermental and her brother will change too and become more matured and less tempermental too, taking charge and knowing God. I think that itself will be a miracle since he's so obsessed with the dark or so attracted to it.

called my new Di and he gave me some advice. he is so matured for his age man. and he's smart. gosh. and he's like gonna be a CGL 1 day I think. (if only he's not younger than me LOL..OK! JK) talking to him he revealed guys always have to deal with lust, including him. I guess its cos they're made their way. how sad!

[♥ the perfect man for me is like Rolland's niceness/gentleness, Di-s' maturity and smartness, eh, lookswise, not very sure leh. but I tend to like pretty boys haha.. all my crushes had been pretty boys..oh no.

anyway, I think this Di is going to stay lol.The thing with my Di-s is that they never stay. probably because I don't have time for them, and they don't bother about me after some time..

feel quite bad too. but that's the problem with me.. I find it hard to find time for people. I am very used to routine and I only find time to close frens I guess. so I think this is also why I havent helped a friend gain salvation ={ I must jiayou! and not neglect the Bible lah. I so long nv do QT le.]

after slacking ard for fellowship, Stella, Yvonne, me and Bryan went Bedok cos I wanna buy contact lens and the others they went there to eat, Bryan to buy jeans.. at the end when we go off, Yvonne seemed happier and less frustrated by whats happening in her life, so I am glad, in a way, we made a difference! =X

ahh anyway SIP I got posted to DaimlerChrysler, Mercedes Benz co. with Tajjlee (a malay guy from same course- dunno him until SIP) he seems nice lah. the co. also quite cool.. its at Centennial Tower. but then office work is SOOOOOOOOO boring I dunno how the office people there survive. I think they survive by visiting the pantry cos food and drinks restore their sleepiness lol.. I think I found a new friend in Hot Green Tea too, my fave !~ =) I din kno they have Green Tea there.. Milo seems fattening if I drank too much, I dont drink Coffee/Coke cos its staining/unhealthy.. so Green Tea's just perfect! hehe. somemore 1 bag can last a long time!!

my supervisor's away on a business trip till Wed so when I nothing to do I surf the net to check email or whatever, or I read magazine, or I'd do the I-Guides Recruitment Plan..=) ok la, so its not too bad. but its still boring. and food at that area is expensive man. I am like budget girl and having to deal with ex food T.T is like a torture! lol.

a random wish~ haha, I wish I am gorgeous lol, because its like a wish of mine to photograph my execution of actions that explains my emotions. and I am like not photogenic..-.- so, thats a problem.

to explain, its like when I emo or think sometimes, there'd be the envisioning/thoughts of a pose. and if only I photograph people (therefore can direct them to do the actions I want) or I get photographed.. then I can keep the photos as a form of expression of my own thoughts at that point of time. LOL. I know it does sound abit weird right, the wishes I have. overall, I think it'd be better to have yourself in such photos rite.. cos it'd be more relatable to you. For me, I think some poses would relate to carefreeness, happiness, sadness-emo-ness cos that's me!

Current Song in my head: Avril Lavigne's When You're Gone

Current Emo Thought: What's the world coming to? Can we make a difference?

Current Thought: I should be in bed

Current Emotion: Inspired! Love for friends mood!

This week's relevation: The time is near, let us be faithful as He is faithful too, live each day with thanksgiving!