Weight on my shoulders
I guess when I face tough or troubled times, I'd especially especially miss Momo, my true confidante and friend..but I don't know why, at these times, she's always not around! =@ why!! and I'd feel so alone.
It seems that I am becoming more outspoken and withdrawn recently, both at the same time. I am kinda being more sociable/speaking up more, and I am able to converse and laugh at my mandarin, but sometimes, I can't help but feel sad. and I'd keep everything to myself maybe cause I don't think anybody else would understand me like my best friend does =(
of late, I have become more irritated and emo as well. my tolerance level as compared to last time has decreased considerably. and what really irks me nowadays are rude, inconsiderate people, ESPECIALLY inconsiderate friends. it's like the quote "don't do onto people what you don't want people to do onto you" really don't work on some friends, for some reason, which I don't understand why. It's almost like a basic characteristic I felt that a friend should have after all, but now I know, not all friends are that.
rant. I need to rant. the weight on my shoulders seems especially heavy.
it's like I've not studied for the past few days and not have time to myself. and I'm someone who really need to have time to myself so I guess maybe the way I'm feeling now is because I'm not having enough of that. which sucks. then there's the responsibilities, the dwindling money supply (I'm almost broke!), the unfulfilled things I want to do. the pathetic state I am in right now because my best friend is not here with me.
how can I get out of feeling like this? it was okay at first when she left, but like how I felt when my grandpa died, the emotions I feel really starts coming thereafter..and some things are really not helping at all.
Oh bother!
... in the midst when I was doing a good deed (despite the bad mood), a white butterfly/moth flew in! petrifying. and I stay on the 12th Floor. It was really creepy.....!!! OMG. it flew outside my door after a few minutes after I ran out. and then I ran in and closed the door shut and proceeded to close the window curtains!! =@ okay, time to sleep. my emo-ness is over. hope I can study tomorrow. maybe it'd take my mind off things.
It seems that I am becoming more outspoken and withdrawn recently, both at the same time. I am kinda being more sociable/speaking up more, and I am able to converse and laugh at my mandarin, but sometimes, I can't help but feel sad. and I'd keep everything to myself maybe cause I don't think anybody else would understand me like my best friend does =(
of late, I have become more irritated and emo as well. my tolerance level as compared to last time has decreased considerably. and what really irks me nowadays are rude, inconsiderate people, ESPECIALLY inconsiderate friends. it's like the quote "don't do onto people what you don't want people to do onto you" really don't work on some friends, for some reason, which I don't understand why. It's almost like a basic characteristic I felt that a friend should have after all, but now I know, not all friends are that.
rant. I need to rant. the weight on my shoulders seems especially heavy.
it's like I've not studied for the past few days and not have time to myself. and I'm someone who really need to have time to myself so I guess maybe the way I'm feeling now is because I'm not having enough of that. which sucks. then there's the responsibilities, the dwindling money supply (I'm almost broke!), the unfulfilled things I want to do. the pathetic state I am in right now because my best friend is not here with me.
how can I get out of feeling like this? it was okay at first when she left, but like how I felt when my grandpa died, the emotions I feel really starts coming thereafter..and some things are really not helping at all.
Oh bother!
... in the midst when I was doing a good deed (despite the bad mood), a white butterfly/moth flew in! petrifying. and I stay on the 12th Floor. It was really creepy.....!!! OMG. it flew outside my door after a few minutes after I ran out. and then I ran in and closed the door shut and proceeded to close the window curtains!! =@ okay, time to sleep. my emo-ness is over. hope I can study tomorrow. maybe it'd take my mind off things.
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