Weddings, Crushes and "It's Complicated"

just came back from a wedding banquet (yes I went to a stranger's wedding- dad's colleague) on my birthday..haha. It was held at the Swissotel "Collyer" Grand Hall.
quite a classy place, the food was great but served a tad slow leh. we reached home at 11.55PM, just enough time for me to cut cake (a Teong Birthday tradition) with my family.. 5 more mins to the end of my birthday lah! so heng. and my mom was complaining alot. I came home to a grouchy looking mom, with her tired looking face and nightgown. she said she waited very long. but it's not our fault what. the food was slow, what to do?

Food-wise, there were 9 dishes (got miniabalone!)
Random comments wise - the groom is 30 plus years old, reminds me of an actor, the bride looks kinda matured and her breasts are damn big! I don't know if its the corset or what.. she makes me want to wear a corset too (I am lemming for one actually but it's not a need. and it's not cos of this factor also) hoho. somemore can surpress my inflated stomach (hohoho).. *ahem* yepyep.. SO after the celebration, my family went off into their own "before-bedtime-activities". I didn't really eat the cake (except skinny Ivan Teong. he's too skinny that he can eat at night lah without worries -.-)

anyway, overall, the wedding was not bad. I went in place of Dad's colleague and passed the groom the angbao. Dad bao-ed $200. wow. the wedding really got me thinking about the future. I was thinking- right now some of my friends had passed driving and can drive or are driving. I think pretty soon (ok NOT so soon lah), the next thing you'd hear from them is that they're getting engaged, getting married, so-and-so is with so-and-so, yada yada yada!!

then I thought to myself. omg. then, will I be invited? I must think of how much angbao to give, what to wear.. !! haha!! then I also wondered if I was to marry, who will I ask to be my host, what will I wear, where (and whether I have the money) to hold the banquet, who to invite, what shall I do for my video (must not overplay a certain video, it's quite irritating), what music to play, what food for the 9-course meal..etc, etc, etc.

during the wedding, I remembered I saw a gorgeous purple gown (for prom one I think) online before and saved the image cos I thought it was so gorgeous. and then I thought, wah, I want that to be part of my bridal dress collection!! nevermind that it'd be sticking to my skin, revealing my bulges, nevermind it'd be sleeveless, nevermind that I am (by a friend last time -.- thanks Yoko) said to have a manly back!! cos AFTERALL, I will probably sign up for some slimming programme (as to what brides do, I believe) before the big day!!

and omg the dress (the first purple one) is so gorgeous to me!! it's jewel purple! I can totally re-wear it for some glam event. HAHA, although that's kinda not advisable.. but why spend so much on clothes you'd only wear once in your life and hang in your closet as an ornament later? (not saying I want to marry alot of times lah, I'm highlighting the reusability factor) haha..oh well. btw, there are two purple dresses cos I was searching for this dress (cos I lost the saved image in my com) and came upon the second dress too. I kinda like the second dress too but I like the first dress' rich jewel purple color.. oh man! I just have a thing for purple things or things made of soft material like satin and silk (it's shiny too! sucha luxurious feel!) lah.

also, at the wedding, I witnessed a table of people beside mine who drank a lot of red wine. one got really drunk and puked. they talked rather loudly throughout, and one of them "c0-erced" (peer pressure!) others to drink.. they were China nationals.

a woman from my table at one point, made a stereotype comment to another China national who's also from my table - "how come you never drink so much like them?" I was amazed. the sociology contexts about stereotyping came into my head and I thought WALAU, being a China national doesn't mean you'd drink and talk loudly lah, although it's kinda "their culture" (cos beer is very cheap in China)

and then I link link to the recent news about the foreign workers and their plight. let's just say we love (we can't do without them) and hate them for some reasons. . when I read about it on the newspaper about the residents' unhappiness about Serangoon (I think) being a land chosen/planned by the government to build foreign workers' housing in.

When I was reading the newspaper, I was rather amazed people actually petition and ask their neighbours to sign them as they don't want the foreign workers' housing to be built near them. I know they feel threatened, are worried for their children's safety, want some peace and quiet, and also they just want to protect their residential house value lah..but seriously, can't we be more compassionate? it's not like these people want to leave their family/homeland to work here. It's just that there's better prospects here. and they are humans too lah. so of course they would want better housing! the government also recognises their contribution and thus they want to build housing for them to reduce overcrowding! (just like the maids' housing plan =T)

oh well. but then again, I am not in their position so I admit I am not in the position to say. but like what a writer in the newspaper said, "it's just not right". abit kuazhang to petition about this kinda thing. and where do they want the foreign workers, the majority who built almost all of Singapore's buildings to stay in? Pulau Ubin ah? -.-

Ahh.. that being said, I shall just leave it as that.

Next topic, relationships.
Of late, I seem to hear of many friends' "It's Complicated" BGRs.. and then I thought to myself, gosh. relationships are so mafan, thank God I'm single. but then again, I guess being in love and the attention from the other party is sweet, and you'd feel less alone.. and it's also a human order thing, to seek "The One" (I for one, want to get married). but then the thought of a guy "killing me" subtly with his actions and me being hooked and caught up in a relationship, it just threatens my routine kinda life and I wondered if I'd be able to take such a thing if it comes..

I mean, my last last crush already got me very upset (and thus I promised myself not to put my heart into crushes - "just look, forget and walk away") and my last crush left me feeling very vexed. sometimes I just wanna give up lah on "crushing" (ok sounds stupid). cos I feel pathetic "me-owing" (stealing glances) at my crush or feeling happy when he talks to me, then impatient when he doesn't. the most killer stupid act is me waiting for him to talk to me on msn or what not.

and so I give up.
For comic factor, here's my recent happiness/excitedness level of my latest/ex crush:
interest/happiness/excitedness is just zero already. I'm so sian of crushing around!
From now on, I'd tell myself "He's just not that into you" to stop myself from the pathetic behaviors I mentioned above.

maybe I should start a No-crush initative and a Eye-candy only initiative! but wait! I still wanna get married one day! =/ and my children's name will be Eden (omg my poly friend's name) or Tiasa. such nice names! LOL. ok, that's very random and I shall end it at my What I Want List cos it's bloody 3AM and I gotta wake up at 7AM. collecting my shoes tomorrow! YAY!

Now that I'm 20, Here's What I want List:
Material/Aesthetic Things:
- A long lasting, nice wallet (been using my sis' secretly till she busted me =/)
- To change my phone to a smart phone cos I just like typing instead of smsing normally - I get impatient. and I like to get organised! (gotta wait till December for plan to finish tho =[ )
- To dye my hair to the color I like (don't know when I'd do this)
- Shoes for running (I still haven't gotten one, in 20 years of my life, believe it or not!)
- Kimono dresses and nice dressy tops/dresses

Life Order Wants:
- To study and keep up at lectures
- To get my timetable organised (SIM's slow system damn slow. they better give me my new timetable soon!)
- Clear folders to get organised (no time to go popular)
- To save/Money in my bank
- To lead a more fulfilling life (learn guitar, etc)

THE END