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2dae was my 1st dae wrkin @ intercontinental hotel- fer a wkday tt is.it was pretty fine..easier den sunday brunch actually.but well, =<> downhill after i saw him.haha.we din tok 2 each other which was weird.i din say hi cos i was wonderin if i shld.n he looked busy.n plus i think it'd b weird.he had new black frame glasses or smth?haha.new changes 4 him lol.n im still a fat pudgy cow.
kinda suprised 2 see him dere.guess he got his ic replaced/recovered.gd 4 him..!nw he can wrk 2 achieve his getting a motorbike dream~@! hope he's happy.dun care if he reads tis (cos he gt my link) but i juz wanna admit tt @ tt time, i felt quite sour to see him.mebbe cos of da fact tt (as sarah puts it) i got dumped thru email?on my 1st r/s smmore.n e "r/s r nt evil" ideas of bein in a r/s were lyk dashed.but luckily i din really sink deeply,wholesale.cant say i was really hurt too.cos frankly, kinda expected it wun last cos of nt havin enuf communication.we din act lyk a couple too.i really wonder if he really lyked/love me lyk he said.i think da word 'love' is misused.hw 2 love sm1 when u dun even noe tt person well enuf sia?haha..
lookin back,wad he said appears quite bullshit..in a way tt cos it did nt made sense.i still rmb hw he told me hw impt i was..so..was tt a lie?smth 2 make me feel gd? smth he said @ da heat of a moment?i dunno sia.he holds all da ans.n all i can do nw is question.i shld really let go.y m i even holding on? however, it is gd i dun think of him nw,only when he appears frm nwhere den i will start 2 think hw shit it is.
his reappearance made me think abt stuffs.i haf tis idea tt he liked me over the net but perhaps, nt in real life.got this feeling tt he was trying/forcing himself to so-called "like/love me" (inspired by Shutter?mebbe im wrong i dunno)..kinda lyk "self-deceiving"?i was too much of a bore+lifeless creature tt he eventually learnt to "hate my guts" for..my perception (ob!aha) is lyk tt lahs.
ahh..dun tok abt him alr.n e wae whalau 2dae damn bloody cheebye.i spilled tiger beer on my toga wrk dress or smth.so suay.den i was lyk threatening to drop lotsa things lah.but i was thankful tt i din break n e glass.hm.but it was paiseh lah.i looked lyk a fool.2dae i asked da seniors(who alwz seem frustrated wif me except nice Vivien who is forever patient.<3>sm stupid q as well.hahas.sians.well another bad thing tt happened 2 me 2dae was tt 1stly canny kaopeh me cos i came late(cos i went 2 eat @ staff canteen)den later cos of my hair(i m seriously considering cutting of my hair tho im friggin' scared)n den later she kaopeh whenever i stand close 2 sm1(wad.she wan me impose 2m rule ar away frm ppl)den later she kaopeh cos i put da tray on da table while clearing.lyk hello.da table damn low lah can die tryin 2 put da stuff into da tray.
she was dere when i put da tray on da table.den she kaopehed n said "arh,arh,wad did i say-dun put tray on da table" den i was lyk nt answering lah cos i din noe she took it so seriously..lyk i thot she'll let me off n i took it tt she implied nxt time i shldnt do tis again..?her reaction to my ignoring of her msg is damn bloody big lah.she was lyk "u dun understand my eng ar?u wan me speak in chinese/malay/indian?" den i was lyk -.- yea took da tray back..
den @ da last of our wrk b4 dismissal she sae i shld respect her or smth.tt shez my superior n tt i shld gif her respect n nt ignore wad she tell me 2 do n tt i shld do wad she do.den sorta implied tt she think i dun lyk her?i mean common lorh.i dun hate n e 1.mainly due 2 bad memory too.dere4 i dun hold grudges..yeah.but i think my face showed my irritatedness of her repeated "show me respect" speech.i was lyk @_@""" hELp~
ah..during wrk,in da kitchen,i heard Lucria da singer frm Coasta Rico (gorgeous mama wif big buns n chio body *woot)abt men or smth.abt hw younger men only think abt haf fun.she said she'll prefer older men when dey haf all da fun n is ready 2 settle dwn.haha.i was eaves droppin on em.they were talking abt quite an interesting topic mah.
hah.den yeah lorh.i agree men cannot b trusted cos quoting frm Lucria,all dey wan is to "shoot" lols.
u kno i haf a perception tt i'd b those 50yr old auntie who is single cos shes incapable of bein loved/b loved.so sad?!
i doubt i'd find a person hu loves me too
im weird.
kinda suprised 2 see him dere.guess he got his ic replaced/recovered.gd 4 him..!nw he can wrk 2 achieve his getting a motorbike dream~@! hope he's happy.dun care if he reads tis (cos he gt my link) but i juz wanna admit tt @ tt time, i felt quite sour to see him.mebbe cos of da fact tt (as sarah puts it) i got dumped thru email?on my 1st r/s smmore.n e "r/s r nt evil" ideas of bein in a r/s were lyk dashed.but luckily i din really sink deeply,wholesale.cant say i was really hurt too.cos frankly, kinda expected it wun last cos of nt havin enuf communication.we din act lyk a couple too.i really wonder if he really lyked/love me lyk he said.i think da word 'love' is misused.hw 2 love sm1 when u dun even noe tt person well enuf sia?haha..
lookin back,wad he said appears quite bullshit..in a way tt cos it did nt made sense.i still rmb hw he told me hw impt i was..so..was tt a lie?smth 2 make me feel gd? smth he said @ da heat of a moment?i dunno sia.he holds all da ans.n all i can do nw is question.i shld really let go.y m i even holding on? however, it is gd i dun think of him nw,only when he appears frm nwhere den i will start 2 think hw shit it is.
his reappearance made me think abt stuffs.i haf tis idea tt he liked me over the net but perhaps, nt in real life.got this feeling tt he was trying/forcing himself to so-called "like/love me" (inspired by Shutter?mebbe im wrong i dunno)..kinda lyk "self-deceiving"?i was too much of a bore+lifeless creature tt he eventually learnt to "hate my guts" for..my perception (ob!aha) is lyk tt lahs.
ahh..dun tok abt him alr.n e wae whalau 2dae damn bloody cheebye.i spilled tiger beer on my toga wrk dress or smth.so suay.den i was lyk threatening to drop lotsa things lah.but i was thankful tt i din break n e glass.hm.but it was paiseh lah.i looked lyk a fool.2dae i asked da seniors(who alwz seem frustrated wif me except nice Vivien who is forever patient.<3>sm stupid q as well.hahas.sians.well another bad thing tt happened 2 me 2dae was tt 1stly canny kaopeh me cos i came late(cos i went 2 eat @ staff canteen)den later cos of my hair(i m seriously considering cutting of my hair tho im friggin' scared)n den later she kaopeh whenever i stand close 2 sm1(wad.she wan me impose 2m rule ar away frm ppl)den later she kaopeh cos i put da tray on da table while clearing.lyk hello.da table damn low lah can die tryin 2 put da stuff into da tray.
she was dere when i put da tray on da table.den she kaopehed n said "arh,arh,wad did i say-dun put tray on da table" den i was lyk nt answering lah cos i din noe she took it so seriously..lyk i thot she'll let me off n i took it tt she implied nxt time i shldnt do tis again..?her reaction to my ignoring of her msg is damn bloody big lah.she was lyk "u dun understand my eng ar?u wan me speak in chinese/malay/indian?" den i was lyk -.- yea took da tray back..
den @ da last of our wrk b4 dismissal she sae i shld respect her or smth.tt shez my superior n tt i shld gif her respect n nt ignore wad she tell me 2 do n tt i shld do wad she do.den sorta implied tt she think i dun lyk her?i mean common lorh.i dun hate n e 1.mainly due 2 bad memory too.dere4 i dun hold grudges..yeah.but i think my face showed my irritatedness of her repeated "show me respect" speech.i was lyk @_@""" hELp~
ah..during wrk,in da kitchen,i heard Lucria da singer frm Coasta Rico (gorgeous mama wif big buns n chio body *woot)abt men or smth.abt hw younger men only think abt haf fun.she said she'll prefer older men when dey haf all da fun n is ready 2 settle dwn.haha.i was eaves droppin on em.they were talking abt quite an interesting topic mah.
hah.den yeah lorh.i agree men cannot b trusted cos quoting frm Lucria,all dey wan is to "shoot" lols.
u kno i haf a perception tt i'd b those 50yr old auntie who is single cos shes incapable of bein loved/b loved.so sad?!
i doubt i'd find a person hu loves me too
im weird.
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