47.what is love?
what is love?haha..i juz watched WU YEN (but only watched lyk 15% only, cos was watchin abit of Bring it On [despite watchin so many times alr] n oso multi-tasking, tryin 2 send my proj to sarah after doin it-MONDAY GOT ORAL PRESENTATON!GAHH!! *tears hair out* )
yeah..n e waez,while on da com,i was thinkin hw "what is love" suits hw i was feelin right nw so i was considering if i shld use it as my nick,since i really lack understanding of it.WAH!den so super qiao!!wu yen (played by hot chiobu sammi cheung SKII woman) said "love is sabotage and destruction" woot.*CLAPS* cool sia.lol but uhs.i wldnt kno.but her saying tt motivated me 2 make me da decision on making this quote become my sub-nick, my personal msg. ^-^ HOHO
u know, i think its pretty a gd thing i haf a horrible memory..gd in da sense tt i think i can recover quite fast after a breakup.altho i still feel quite betrayed, n stupid, whenever i "reminisce". it was lyk juz when i had a change of heart to wanna open my heart to him, n change 4 him n nt neglect him, he left just lyk tt.lyk "WHOOSH" he's gone n im left alone.he left,despite his promises..but its ok.feelings do change,i understand..im tryin 2 b back 2 normal again,so wad im doin nw is i'm juz blockin out past memories.
i'm happy 2 b single for now.
gonna block out n e feelings 4 n e 1 tt i might haf feelings 4.
back to sec sch daes..=/
haiz,funnily today i went 2 look @ da present he gave me haha..dunno y oso.den i copied his butterfly n drew it in my journal.i love my journal sia..i think da wood's abit rotting.i oso dunno.got sm substance dere..everytime i walk near da cupboard whr i place it i can smell da nice smell..haiz.btw,back in sec sch daez, all i ever do is draw in it,copy lyrics n doodle n all..felt so self-satisifed n free after doin each piece.i feel its sucha personal thing.i love my journal!!
tt dae when he broke up wif me, i was numbed n i kept replaying da song Straitjacket Feeling by All American Rejects, i wrote da full lyrics of it, n did some artwrk in my TP journal as well.weird.felt lyk composing a poem or smth regardin it..
ah!i REALLY REALLY hope i get into the 20th Century Fashion CDS!!i wanna get back 2 doin sm art!altho its kinda stressful n all(heard frm my design sch frens)yeps..hope louis n i both can get in.abit sad/scary 2 go if 1 of us can get in da course,but alone!!no frens.n smmore im anti-socialx100..i think if i ever get in,da ppl dere will intimidate me.but i shldn't think so much since i dun even kno if i can even get into it in da 1st place since its sucha "hot" course..=/ haha.
ah~aunt is moving in 4 awhile.shez really serious abt da divorce thing.i asked her wad happen n she told me she juz cant tahan her husband gambling on anymore..den i was lyk ok..after tt i oso overheard her sayin to some1 on da phone tt she doesnt love him anymore..haiz,y is all the things ard me makin me nt trust da possibility of true love?yeah.i think it doesnt exist,lyk hw "true frens" dun exist.used 2 think tt it exist when im small but i realise da fault kinda lies in me,hw my frens drift apart frm me..
hm,ever since aunt move in we r gettin alot of phone calls.quite irritating haha.cos nobodi picks em up except me.n im so lazy../= den i haf 2 yell fer her name 2 notify her of da call(cos usually shez da 1 gettin called)haha.den her son oso lyk my brother ian liddat..equally notti/busybody.so tt makes 2 ians!horrifying!haha.
nowadaez lyk 2 lock myself in my rm lol..gosh.im so cold n "unfamily-y" i dun even kno my parents' age.oso due 2 bad memory.but tts nt an excuse.i think i got mom's b'date on my phone..but if im nt wrong mom's 40+ n dad's 50+??hmm....
hahas.i m a lousy human being.
y doesnt life turn out lyk it does in da movies?gah..
poor aunt..=/ hope everything will go well 4 her.i remember she was so nice 2 me last time..bought me 2 soft toys!!a bear n a rabbit..i was touched back den ok!cos nobody buys me toys.i dun kno y my parents din really buy much toys 4 us oso..haha.mebbe cos i nv ask.i oso cant rmb.haha.yeah..n todae she gave me a pair of earrings.din buy 4 sis cos she cldnt find another 1 4 her or smth.i think im damn sai/paiseh/bhb to think tis way but i kinda think she favours me more..hahaha..but dunno y i paiseh tok 2 her..haha.
shit.tmr gotta wake up @ 5.30 prepare 4 wrk..gtg.
ciao~
hope tmr will b less painful(soles!) n tt monday wld b shun li..=/
yeah..n e waez,while on da com,i was thinkin hw "what is love" suits hw i was feelin right nw so i was considering if i shld use it as my nick,since i really lack understanding of it.WAH!den so super qiao!!wu yen (played by hot chiobu sammi cheung SKII woman) said "love is sabotage and destruction" woot.*CLAPS* cool sia.lol but uhs.i wldnt kno.but her saying tt motivated me 2 make me da decision on making this quote become my sub-nick, my personal msg. ^-^ HOHO
u know, i think its pretty a gd thing i haf a horrible memory..gd in da sense tt i think i can recover quite fast after a breakup.altho i still feel quite betrayed, n stupid, whenever i "reminisce". it was lyk juz when i had a change of heart to wanna open my heart to him, n change 4 him n nt neglect him, he left just lyk tt.lyk "WHOOSH" he's gone n im left alone.he left,despite his promises..but its ok.feelings do change,i understand..im tryin 2 b back 2 normal again,so wad im doin nw is i'm juz blockin out past memories.
i'm happy 2 b single for now.
gonna block out n e feelings 4 n e 1 tt i might haf feelings 4.
back to sec sch daes..=/
haiz,funnily today i went 2 look @ da present he gave me haha..dunno y oso.den i copied his butterfly n drew it in my journal.i love my journal sia..i think da wood's abit rotting.i oso dunno.got sm substance dere..everytime i walk near da cupboard whr i place it i can smell da nice smell..haiz.btw,back in sec sch daez, all i ever do is draw in it,copy lyrics n doodle n all..felt so self-satisifed n free after doin each piece.i feel its sucha personal thing.i love my journal!!
tt dae when he broke up wif me, i was numbed n i kept replaying da song Straitjacket Feeling by All American Rejects, i wrote da full lyrics of it, n did some artwrk in my TP journal as well.weird.felt lyk composing a poem or smth regardin it..
ah!i REALLY REALLY hope i get into the 20th Century Fashion CDS!!i wanna get back 2 doin sm art!altho its kinda stressful n all(heard frm my design sch frens)yeps..hope louis n i both can get in.abit sad/scary 2 go if 1 of us can get in da course,but alone!!no frens.n smmore im anti-socialx100..i think if i ever get in,da ppl dere will intimidate me.but i shldn't think so much since i dun even kno if i can even get into it in da 1st place since its sucha "hot" course..=/ haha.
ah~aunt is moving in 4 awhile.shez really serious abt da divorce thing.i asked her wad happen n she told me she juz cant tahan her husband gambling on anymore..den i was lyk ok..after tt i oso overheard her sayin to some1 on da phone tt she doesnt love him anymore..haiz,y is all the things ard me makin me nt trust da possibility of true love?yeah.i think it doesnt exist,lyk hw "true frens" dun exist.used 2 think tt it exist when im small but i realise da fault kinda lies in me,hw my frens drift apart frm me..
hm,ever since aunt move in we r gettin alot of phone calls.quite irritating haha.cos nobodi picks em up except me.n im so lazy../= den i haf 2 yell fer her name 2 notify her of da call(cos usually shez da 1 gettin called)haha.den her son oso lyk my brother ian liddat..equally notti/busybody.so tt makes 2 ians!horrifying!haha.
nowadaez lyk 2 lock myself in my rm lol..gosh.im so cold n "unfamily-y" i dun even kno my parents' age.oso due 2 bad memory.but tts nt an excuse.i think i got mom's b'date on my phone..but if im nt wrong mom's 40+ n dad's 50+??hmm....
hahas.i m a lousy human being.
y doesnt life turn out lyk it does in da movies?gah..
poor aunt..=/ hope everything will go well 4 her.i remember she was so nice 2 me last time..bought me 2 soft toys!!a bear n a rabbit..i was touched back den ok!cos nobody buys me toys.i dun kno y my parents din really buy much toys 4 us oso..haha.mebbe cos i nv ask.i oso cant rmb.haha.yeah..n todae she gave me a pair of earrings.din buy 4 sis cos she cldnt find another 1 4 her or smth.i think im damn sai/paiseh/bhb to think tis way but i kinda think she favours me more..hahaha..but dunno y i paiseh tok 2 her..haha.
shit.tmr gotta wake up @ 5.30 prepare 4 wrk..gtg.
ciao~
hope tmr will b less painful(soles!) n tt monday wld b shun li..=/
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