give me will strength N courage, O Lord
i think i seriously haf a heart of stone
dunno y i was nt touched wif da services i had experienced so far leh in CHC
din feel touched enuf to wanna change my life.
spiritual growth is something tt takes lotsa time
n tt'd coincide wif studies n everything
do i really wanna step into this path?
m i ready?
i dunno leh.i alwz dunno n e thing 1.n im so blur as to wad i wan.knn.
sucha small decision n im struggling.
small changes n i m put outta balance.n i can even consider if i shld join da GL thing in sch fer fun hahahahaha!joke.
den i'd really b a busybird man,which wld b really different 360 degree change,cos i v free 1.lols.
even tho i so free n haf so much time last time, i dunno y i forever feelin tired.slpin alot.haiyoh!
i think i really din open my heart to God
but i do feel some Holy Spirit presence lyk perhaps da "water rushing down" on me (which stella frm my cellgrp described-she seems so happy tokin abt God.she really loved God.cuz everybody's diff) which is supp 2 b da holy spirit's presence. sasha's 1 is feeling hot i think hahaha.she actually spoke in tongues 4 lyk 5secs after cryin cos she "felt da presence"..y i nv feel enuf of it leh?!?haiyahhh...i sorta looked ard n saw a guy crossing his arm.hm.lol,he's prob a new fren.he looked kinda bewildered n i looked @ him cos i think tts hw i felt da 1st time i came here haha.
[oh! i realised my cellgrp wah.all sec sch ppl.i feel so old can.stella looked older den me, da 2 guys too.but theyre sec 3 or 4.wah!!dey really haf da POLY look sia.]
so if i choose to lead a busy,yet fulfillin life,i might juz end up lookin lyk a drug addict/unkempt girl *thinks messy hair,HUGE EYEBAGS,yellow teeth*..i may end up slpin in lects n doin horriblely in my schwrk (undone tut!@_@ horrors) lol.might nt b used 2 da change!
aiya speakin abt schwrk.its so stressin everybody up lah. read all their blogs n we all complain abt same thing.haiyoh.jialat.SCH sux lah.man i think my "aim higher fer GPA" wish will juz b left on da shelf.lols.but i wanna maintain my A fer acc leh!cos i hardly get As.but i think tts highly impossible cos i hardly get da time 2 practice.n smmore deres da horrible stats tt needs practicin,n above all,every other subj (other subj).HAIYAH!!irritating!!
ah,n e wae 2dae dere was this ALTER CALL.which is i think da pastor putting the weight of God upon u,during da prayer session fer u n da others.its sucha eyeopener manz..i saw so many ppl "fainting" @ da same time.dey all line up to b uh "blessed by da pastor"(?) n dere were security guards behind em to prevent em frm fallin hard n gettin concusions..haha.
i oso went up bcos dey called on ALL POLY N UNI STUDENTS.sasha n me dun wanna go 1 leh.cos we were so freakin scared..nt ready 4 it @ all.din even noe deres alter call 2dae lah!i was thinkin "wad if i nv faint?" n i was juz so frightened as hell tt i cried.yes.cried.lol.almost every1 dere fainted lah.ok dey fell fer dey felt da weight of da Lord,technically.
wahh..so ok sasha n me finally got in line.me 1st lah.den da Pastor come n hit me on da head.den i feel quite dizzy sia.lols.i felt something, but dunno is wad.lol.den i nv faint lor.quite expected.but i smhw i thot to myself prior to this tt i MIGHT faint due to uh..higher power/magic frm pastor?but din leh hahaha.haf 2 sae he hit quite hard.after gettin hit, i wondered to myself if da other ppl fainted due to da pastor hitting @ da right place.but dun think so lah.
haha..so it was sasha's turn.i was abit blur..so blur after my turn tt i din notice da pastor hit her shoulder nt her head.den she oso nv faint.we both stood dere (da security guard prob thot phew!get a breather..) haha.den ok it was over, i was lyk "hmm..ok!?wahhh" lol.after dey ppl laid dere n da time was 4 dem to go,da other ppl got tapped by da security guards den dey woke up n after awhile,walked away..some cried i believe.wAh.dey lied dere quite long.o yea,i noticed some ppl who got tapped by da pastor sorta shook b4 fainting.i was lyk @_@ wah! lol.
abit weird lah cos i 1st time see such thing..but was an eyeopener..after tt went Jurong Point shopped n i bought new pants..hehe.den take mrt home see muds playin wif camera.den when on our way home,on sasha's parents car,sasha told her parents abt da alter call n dey seemed pretty ok wif it.but i think i betta dun tell mine or they'll worry more hahaha.but i told my sis haha.
haiya.monday da newspaper article thing nobody cares lah..
i really no mood to do.n nobody wanna get it started.walau!
i'd juz go search abt it fer awhile.i think we'll most prob do last min.sian.
oOo yeah!we all shiftin 2 EXPO.but poor ppl lyk stella will haf 2 travel to east now.haiyoh.
dunno y i was nt touched wif da services i had experienced so far leh in CHC
din feel touched enuf to wanna change my life.
spiritual growth is something tt takes lotsa time
n tt'd coincide wif studies n everything
do i really wanna step into this path?
m i ready?
i dunno leh.i alwz dunno n e thing 1.n im so blur as to wad i wan.knn.
sucha small decision n im struggling.
small changes n i m put outta balance.n i can even consider if i shld join da GL thing in sch fer fun hahahahaha!joke.
den i'd really b a busybird man,which wld b really different 360 degree change,cos i v free 1.lols.
even tho i so free n haf so much time last time, i dunno y i forever feelin tired.slpin alot.haiyoh!
i think i really din open my heart to God
but i do feel some Holy Spirit presence lyk perhaps da "water rushing down" on me (which stella frm my cellgrp described-she seems so happy tokin abt God.she really loved God.cuz everybody's diff) which is supp 2 b da holy spirit's presence. sasha's 1 is feeling hot i think hahaha.she actually spoke in tongues 4 lyk 5secs after cryin cos she "felt da presence"..y i nv feel enuf of it leh?!?haiyahhh...i sorta looked ard n saw a guy crossing his arm.hm.lol,he's prob a new fren.he looked kinda bewildered n i looked @ him cos i think tts hw i felt da 1st time i came here haha.
[oh! i realised my cellgrp wah.all sec sch ppl.i feel so old can.stella looked older den me, da 2 guys too.but theyre sec 3 or 4.wah!!dey really haf da POLY look sia.]
so if i choose to lead a busy,yet fulfillin life,i might juz end up lookin lyk a drug addict/unkempt girl *thinks messy hair,HUGE EYEBAGS,yellow teeth*..i may end up slpin in lects n doin horriblely in my schwrk (undone tut!@_@ horrors) lol.might nt b used 2 da change!
aiya speakin abt schwrk.its so stressin everybody up lah. read all their blogs n we all complain abt same thing.haiyoh.jialat.SCH sux lah.man i think my "aim higher fer GPA" wish will juz b left on da shelf.lols.but i wanna maintain my A fer acc leh!cos i hardly get As.but i think tts highly impossible cos i hardly get da time 2 practice.n smmore deres da horrible stats tt needs practicin,n above all,every other subj (other subj).HAIYAH!!irritating!!
ah,n e wae 2dae dere was this ALTER CALL.which is i think da pastor putting the weight of God upon u,during da prayer session fer u n da others.its sucha eyeopener manz..i saw so many ppl "fainting" @ da same time.dey all line up to b uh "blessed by da pastor"(?) n dere were security guards behind em to prevent em frm fallin hard n gettin concusions..haha.
i oso went up bcos dey called on ALL POLY N UNI STUDENTS.sasha n me dun wanna go 1 leh.cos we were so freakin scared..nt ready 4 it @ all.din even noe deres alter call 2dae lah!i was thinkin "wad if i nv faint?" n i was juz so frightened as hell tt i cried.yes.cried.lol.almost every1 dere fainted lah.ok dey fell fer dey felt da weight of da Lord,technically.
wahh..so ok sasha n me finally got in line.me 1st lah.den da Pastor come n hit me on da head.den i feel quite dizzy sia.lols.i felt something, but dunno is wad.lol.den i nv faint lor.quite expected.but i smhw i thot to myself prior to this tt i MIGHT faint due to uh..higher power/magic frm pastor?but din leh hahaha.haf 2 sae he hit quite hard.after gettin hit, i wondered to myself if da other ppl fainted due to da pastor hitting @ da right place.but dun think so lah.
haha..so it was sasha's turn.i was abit blur..so blur after my turn tt i din notice da pastor hit her shoulder nt her head.den she oso nv faint.we both stood dere (da security guard prob thot phew!get a breather..) haha.den ok it was over, i was lyk "hmm..ok!?wahhh" lol.after dey ppl laid dere n da time was 4 dem to go,da other ppl got tapped by da security guards den dey woke up n after awhile,walked away..some cried i believe.wAh.dey lied dere quite long.o yea,i noticed some ppl who got tapped by da pastor sorta shook b4 fainting.i was lyk @_@ wah! lol.
abit weird lah cos i 1st time see such thing..but was an eyeopener..after tt went Jurong Point shopped n i bought new pants..hehe.den take mrt home see muds playin wif camera.den when on our way home,on sasha's parents car,sasha told her parents abt da alter call n dey seemed pretty ok wif it.but i think i betta dun tell mine or they'll worry more hahaha.but i told my sis haha.
haiya.monday da newspaper article thing nobody cares lah..
i really no mood to do.n nobody wanna get it started.walau!
i'd juz go search abt it fer awhile.i think we'll most prob do last min.sian.
oOo yeah!we all shiftin 2 EXPO.but poor ppl lyk stella will haf 2 travel to east now.haiyoh.
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