Hieros Gamos

i m SO awake!!
SO fulla energy now!
*hands outstretched into da sky!*

~yeahhhhhh bABY!!!

juz cuz i got that phonecall.tho it woke me up frm my slumber *oink oink!* (haha was slpin lyk a pig-it was v shiok nw 2 slp sia.cos its raining all dae!whee!) but im haPpY => to hear tt phonecall!!
COS I WON SOMETHING!!WAHAHAHAHA HA.HA!

i hardly cld believe its true..
n still,i cant believe its true leh.
is it?i dun believe leh!

n i'd say i wldnt dare believe it until i receive da letter (which wld b sent to me later) !IS IT TRUE?did i win da Hieros Gamos nike dunks shoe contest tt i participated in (bcos i thot da shoe looks gd except da shoelace.lol)?da ONE N ONLY 1 tt was customised n existing in this wrld bcos da da artist only made 1!is it true?did i really win it?wakau..

lady luck shining over me recently or wad sia.
its lyk these few daez i've been witnessing miracles (will emphasize later) *sob*

thank u lord!thank u father,love my creator!!
*go mad lah*

im so happy.
its da best thing 2 wake up to (lyk winning toto/4d?but nv felt da "win" situation b4 cos nv buy toto/4d mah.underage) plus it cldnt haf came @ da right time! bcos currently i do not own a pair of shoes.i wear my sis' converse,i've gt tt ugly black adidas boots which i dun wear no more,so technically i've gt no shoes =( so i cant wait 2 get da shoes!i hope my leg can go in leh.i hope da size is juz right 4 me!!! (cos da artist created da ONE N ONLY 1 in 1 size..-.- lah.so i dunno if i can fit.cos i dunno wad size he created da shoe in.n i dunno if tt shoes is a sports shoe or a "bai mei" shoe or wad..

omg im so happy lah.

haiyoh..

nw all i can do is to wait 4 da letter.den i can go collect it @ Fareast Plaza's shop, inbox! hmm.i still m shaken wif unbelief leh.i joined tt competition despite me thinkin i had no hopes of winning at all.but i told myself juz go try lah..n i won!i din think i'd win bcos my real life story of smth "spinechilling" tt happened to me is patheitc, n NOT SCARY at all..so i had no idea y my email entry gt picked! but da story i wrote,which i told ppl sorta a million times (shall repeat again) is tt 1 dae i was @ da toilet peeing lah.woke up to pee cos gotta pee ma (hm,nowadaez tt hardly happens.i gt gd bladder le?!=x ) den was v scared when i was alone at my mom's toilet.it was dark.i dunno y i so bendan nv on da toilet light (think too scared to do so).so i was so scared i did a childish thing.which was to put my 2 index fingers to make a cross..

n when i did tt, (!!!) yellow light illuminated frm em!!i was so frightened tt without pullin my pants up,i ran out,skimpering..into my bed.funny right?but i think wad i experienced tt dae was prob a fragment of my imagination.but lookin back it might b a msg God had given me (wah i feel so special!)..or i dunno wad.but it sure scared da hell outta me.i was lyk a skinny primary sch kid (wad happened to me?) only lor!scare me lyk tt i still nv faint.so heng.

hmm,n altho i'd hate to b so bhb to sae its a msg frm God,i think tt moment,tho scary,is kinda beautiful as well.
(pardon me if u dunno wad im saying haha)

o yea.tried 2 get a pic of da shoe frm da net but i think tt shoe isnt tt publicised.it only came out in a local magazine.so yea.i searched on Hieros Gamos(da shoe name) n frm wikipedia.com,i got da definition was "Hieros Gamos or Hierogamy means a coupling (sometimes marriage) of a god and a man or a woman, often having a symbolic meaning. It is an ancient ritual in which participants believed that they could gain profound religious experience through sexual intercourse. Participants assumed characteristics of deities, often channeling the deities in question, and by their union provided symbolic and literal fertility for themselves, the land, and their people. This was often done by the monarch and hierodule of the dominant religion.
The etymology is from Greek: "hieros" = holy and "gamos" = marriage, coupling."

wah so it means coupling wif God?huh...aiyoh y da shoe artist name da shoe wif a name lyk tt?!?hm..n den a site came up.it had lotsa text.i dunno if its a religious text or wad..it seem kinda related to da bible =/

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ah,ok i was away frm bloggin 4 awhile bcos benedict asked me to view his forum thread.he wrote a new thread to see da opinion of ppl,abt his fren, Dawn,(whom he knew back previously..but lost contact) whom had experienced lotsa contraversies n comments frm ppl who tagged on her board accusing her/blogged on their own blog..yadayada, tt she had plastic surgery.manz. shes so freakin gd lookin+hot.(sss~) it was sucha big contraversy in da bloggin world n yet i did nt kno abt her dilema,even tho i went to her blog b4, until now.

chio dawn yang. real beauty or plastic beauty?

i wldnt kno she went under da knife until i asked ben,whom said its quite obvious tt she went under da knife.bcos she looked "v oriental back den".n nw she looked eurasian.however,i admit she looks somehw different frm her old photos,tho i cant pinpoint wad leh.her eyes did change lah.but she does nt look really plastic leh,unlyk "clown" (tho im pretty sure she did not go 4 plastic surgery bcos shes in poly?!) n n e wae,if she had plastic surgery,damn!her plastic surgeon's really gd lor!i oso wan la!lols.hm i oso dun care if she had plastic surgery bcos personally i think it isnt a bad thing (but issit lyk against lyk God's will?) hm,n somehow,i preferred to think her beauty is nt by plastic surgery too,but by God's hands.haha..=') tho many sg chiobus out deren kinda make me feel inferior when i see em,im glad God made em beautiful (?) cos gt nice things gd 2 look @ ma.(think my fren's classmates will b so happy n in agreeial bcos gt more ppl to gawk at) haha..provided those chiobus r nt SO bitchy/lookin down on ppl n stuff.haha.bcos i find tt a turn off leh.it juz make em turn into ugly monsters.haha.no matter hw dey look so pretty outside.

here is da link of her prev pics: (if u're curious.wld lyk 2 kno wad u guys think as well)
http://xialanxue.blogspot.com/2005/11/open-letter-to-dawn-yangyeo.html

hmm poor girl.lets juz sae she did go 4 plastic surgery (esp her eyes..looked diff..=/ ) i think its really fine leh.bcos my siblings n i oso wanna go 4 double eyelid surgery!haha..kinda got enuf of "hey u look v tired" when i m not.haha.hmm.n i hate da way my jaws look leh.so wide.lol.stupid minfei call me spongebob squarepants.if i can, i wld go 4 plastic surgery 2 go make my face shape oval 0r @ least nt so wide lah..hate it.haha.

n lyk wad X said, i do haf a big head (frm my ancestors mah.my bros all got big head except my sis.lucky shit haha.her face da only oval 1) which sorta explains y i haf a slightly big body (2 support da head mah).n i admit i do hate hw my body look.mebbe tts y i kinda dun wear spags as frequently nw.haha.yea.i wish i can b lyk those skinny girls..

yes,i admit i do haf a low self esteem(stemmed frm bein bullied in pri sch).tts y my presentation skills sucks as well i guess.haha.n tts y sarah says im..uh.so nice to bully?(she smhw said tt.4got hw she phrased it) n i admit tho i do feel constantly conscious abt myself,this is nt da right now to care so much/gloat abt hw unsatisfied i m wif my looks.

so i shall stop here!haha.

o yea.abt da miracle haa.ytd i went to buy some tops @ FOS n i bought 4 tops fer 60bucks.den i got 2 tops in 1 bag each.i stuffed my 2nd bag/later buy into da 1st bag n i left.i thot it was inside until sasha said "lemme see wad u buy" n i did,n we realised da tops i bought previously was nt dere.da horrors.we hurry up ran back to da shop go find da "missing plastic bag" to no avail.i was abt to gif up cos lyk really no hope le,until i thought in my head "oh God,pls help me" n da BAG APPEARED RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME,ON DA FLOOR BENEATH DA RACKS.OMG.NOBODY TOOK IT..PRAISE DA LORD! was so happy.hahaha.so tt was my miracle.haha.hmm.wonder when i'd speak tongues hehe.

tmr goin chc again!fer da last of da TABERNACLE series which pastor kong prepared fer 3 mths!n aiyoh.i still haven find da time to read da bible nor da notes again.=/

find da faith,iris!find da faith!

go offline le lah.haha.i v de waste time here 1.aiyah.cos of dawn i nv do wad i did online again!shiat.n its time 4 dinner.sua.

n e wae u guys tc..a flu/sore throat bugs goin ard.sorrie rabster if i made u sick!(o yea tc of ur health ok i kno u're constantly tired frm latenights.haha.jiayou.cant wait 4 ur blog 2 come out too hehe)4got to tell u haha..o yea.n i think i passed minfei da bug too,after da bug was passed to me frm da exact way i passed 2 em-thru my water in my waterbottle.dun drink my vodavoda alr lah!!i sick!

shld go now.bye.