no wonder lah
had a talk wif mom juz nw.
she was kinda worried as she finds da church im goin to weird as i told her tt church speaks in tongues.
told her nt to worry n yadayada.
sis was dere n overheard.den mom n sis gt into some talk n gave me some advice.
sis had found CHC powerful,prob too powerful?she prefers a more toned down church.mom wans me to nt get too distracted(?) or caught up in this in neglect my studies.yes,i prefer a more toned down church too.altho i m inspired by CHC's "large gathering of ppl", coming together for a common purpose (that is cos dey love God), sometimes i feel outta place.or weird.i dunno.i think i can never speak in tongues bcos i lack faith.i do get some feelings, which is abit lyk butterflies in my stomach kind during svcs.i think it was da holy spirit tickling me haha.or tryin 2 reach out to me?
hm..
ya.den mom was lyk suddenly askin me y i cry ytd while tokin 2 sasha.she was shocked lah.asked me y i cry over small things (tho she dunno y i cried) haha.also asked me to not cry so easily.which is true.i cry so easily! in movies,n always, when i get frustrated (when i tok 2 my mom smtimes i cry outta frustration hahaha!)
den told her last time i got bullied ah!joked sae its all her fault cos she got me da big ugly blue plastic specs.den we all laugh lol..den i dunno y tt lead to her sayin o yea hor! tt time i carrying u tt time (yeah!im in her tummy) she went china go climb gr8 wall of china (i hai her so xinku while climbin) den when she was havin ivy, she went japan den america..
kinda tryin 2 implicate tt cos she went dere while she was havin me,i end up lookin china while sis look jap or sound lyk american (accrd 2 herself)...hahaha.joke.but interesting!
ahhahaha.
oOo,was back frm da prayer meeting @ Grace's hse.MANZ!da prayer sessions were really long.den when dey were all speakin in tongues, i tried to pray.but found it hard to.din kno wad to pray smtimes.prayin 4 da same old same old.."grant me will/ability to speak in tongues/getting to know u,Lord".sasha said she meditated durin tt long period.it was really long leh tt i opened my eyes smtimes to peep ard.
reality hits.
after 2dae, i found out tt both sasha n me r nt sure if we wanna commit.we dunno whr 2 go frm here.altho i dun haf tt "i dun haf a fren" prob i had prev,which made me backslide, i still m somehow,not really touched (da holy spirit has not come to me altho it is present somewhere)..i think i have a heart of stone tts too hard 2 break..its not sae that im skeptical,but maybe u call a person lyk me as someone without will, strength and courage for devotion.
juz dunno wad 2 do lah..
its lyk all these days i've been askin God to give me more will, so i wanna get to learn more about him n stuffs.but what im saying/goin thru now is lyk kinda contradicting all tt now!how siaaa
how i lack willpower
i dun wanna let da Lord Jesus die in vain
for he died for us humans to eradicate or try to eradicate sins!!
hm,n e wae ytd i dreamt da world was coming into an end ytd.i was in shock, mentally n physically!!
ah.today at sch i went to slack wif esther at da smelly cafe.nice baked rice dey haf dere sia!!we both ate da choc cakes dere after tt as well.fattening haha.too sweet lah.must say da smelly cafe has a lovely atmosphere.n da smell is smellier outside den inside..so,it is withstandable as once u're inside u r nt really affected by da smell subce derez da smell of food, which overpowers da smelly smell.hm,seriously i think da smelly smell is those auto-air freshener thingies da sch uses.sia lah.its sucha bad move lah.even da toilets smell better.
dear smelly cafe,
u r so smelly u keep ppl away!= reduced earnings!
go get better air freshener!
it WILL b so crowded if u werent so smelly.hahahahah
but still i think u're still a gd hangout!
after eating we slacked @ da lab.learnt some jap words which i think i forgot alr.haha.den esther went to jap class.
o yes!todae was xiuyu's b'dae!
happy b'dae!
ahaha..yep.after jap i went town.chased after da 518 bus n saw louis n his frens inside.so shocked.hahaha.den met sasha.we went 2 pick up da shoes @ inbox hehe.bought necklace frm dere too.i went to withdraw money @ scotts shoppin center dwnstairs n saw yoko n sm of my cellgrp ppl on da way.den i was waiting in line on my way to da ATM.
when i was @ da ATM, this woman in front of me withdrew all her cash frm her card (cos her balance is 0.00) den i realised she 4got to take her 50bucks she withdrew.siao! den i went to chase after her (haiyo) return her.she so weird.withdraw money can 4get to take?!i think shez a foreigner (jap/korean?),frm da way she speaks.mebbe she cldnt read eng well so she din noe she press da withdraw 50bucks button.b4chasin her i was kinda tempted to keep da money leh aha..but din lor.yep.her bank no money liao la! i haf integrity lah! n wad if shes really poor?haha.but den i haf this feeling she stole da card leh.dunno y..haha.
den we went eat macs da new shaker seaweed fries n dunno-wad-u-call-tt burger!nt bad!oishii!den we went 4 prayer meeting..was late sia.slept in da bus..haha.
came online supp 2 do research on da stupid 20th century fashion proj n newspaper article (fer mgt presentation on monday) but my eye's no good (blur diao i dunno y i cant c properly!) n im not in da mood..
but da article's due monday.we all kno it.but nobody really seems to care.
hw sia!?!!
hmm den da com still dun haf all da folders.i hope they're retrievable.kor's back.but da com gt prob..i think he might juz fix it..i sure hope so!cos all my pics gone leh..knn!
my preCioUsX bu yao zhou!~
hui lai
she was kinda worried as she finds da church im goin to weird as i told her tt church speaks in tongues.
told her nt to worry n yadayada.
sis was dere n overheard.den mom n sis gt into some talk n gave me some advice.
sis had found CHC powerful,prob too powerful?she prefers a more toned down church.mom wans me to nt get too distracted(?) or caught up in this in neglect my studies.yes,i prefer a more toned down church too.altho i m inspired by CHC's "large gathering of ppl", coming together for a common purpose (that is cos dey love God), sometimes i feel outta place.or weird.i dunno.i think i can never speak in tongues bcos i lack faith.i do get some feelings, which is abit lyk butterflies in my stomach kind during svcs.i think it was da holy spirit tickling me haha.or tryin 2 reach out to me?
hm..
ya.den mom was lyk suddenly askin me y i cry ytd while tokin 2 sasha.she was shocked lah.asked me y i cry over small things (tho she dunno y i cried) haha.also asked me to not cry so easily.which is true.i cry so easily! in movies,n always, when i get frustrated (when i tok 2 my mom smtimes i cry outta frustration hahaha!)
lame lah.
y i like that.
den told her last time i got bullied ah!joked sae its all her fault cos she got me da big ugly blue plastic specs.den we all laugh lol..den i dunno y tt lead to her sayin o yea hor! tt time i carrying u tt time (yeah!im in her tummy) she went china go climb gr8 wall of china (i hai her so xinku while climbin) den when she was havin ivy, she went japan den america..
kinda tryin 2 implicate tt cos she went dere while she was havin me,i end up lookin china while sis look jap or sound lyk american (accrd 2 herself)...hahaha.joke.but interesting!
ahhahaha.
oOo,was back frm da prayer meeting @ Grace's hse.MANZ!da prayer sessions were really long.den when dey were all speakin in tongues, i tried to pray.but found it hard to.din kno wad to pray smtimes.prayin 4 da same old same old.."grant me will/ability to speak in tongues/getting to know u,Lord".sasha said she meditated durin tt long period.it was really long leh tt i opened my eyes smtimes to peep ard.
reality hits.
after 2dae, i found out tt both sasha n me r nt sure if we wanna commit.we dunno whr 2 go frm here.altho i dun haf tt "i dun haf a fren" prob i had prev,which made me backslide, i still m somehow,not really touched (da holy spirit has not come to me altho it is present somewhere)..i think i have a heart of stone tts too hard 2 break..its not sae that im skeptical,but maybe u call a person lyk me as someone without will, strength and courage for devotion.
juz dunno wad 2 do lah..
its lyk all these days i've been askin God to give me more will, so i wanna get to learn more about him n stuffs.but what im saying/goin thru now is lyk kinda contradicting all tt now!how siaaa
how i lack willpower
i dun wanna let da Lord Jesus die in vain
for he died for us humans to eradicate or try to eradicate sins!!
hm,n e wae ytd i dreamt da world was coming into an end ytd.i was in shock, mentally n physically!!
ah.today at sch i went to slack wif esther at da smelly cafe.nice baked rice dey haf dere sia!!we both ate da choc cakes dere after tt as well.fattening haha.too sweet lah.must say da smelly cafe has a lovely atmosphere.n da smell is smellier outside den inside..so,it is withstandable as once u're inside u r nt really affected by da smell subce derez da smell of food, which overpowers da smelly smell.hm,seriously i think da smelly smell is those auto-air freshener thingies da sch uses.sia lah.its sucha bad move lah.even da toilets smell better.
dear smelly cafe,
u r so smelly u keep ppl away!= reduced earnings!
go get better air freshener!
it WILL b so crowded if u werent so smelly.hahahahah
but still i think u're still a gd hangout!
after eating we slacked @ da lab.learnt some jap words which i think i forgot alr.haha.den esther went to jap class.
o yes!todae was xiuyu's b'dae!
happy b'dae!
ahaha..yep.after jap i went town.chased after da 518 bus n saw louis n his frens inside.so shocked.hahaha.den met sasha.we went 2 pick up da shoes @ inbox hehe.bought necklace frm dere too.i went to withdraw money @ scotts shoppin center dwnstairs n saw yoko n sm of my cellgrp ppl on da way.den i was waiting in line on my way to da ATM.
when i was @ da ATM, this woman in front of me withdrew all her cash frm her card (cos her balance is 0.00) den i realised she 4got to take her 50bucks she withdrew.siao! den i went to chase after her (haiyo) return her.she so weird.withdraw money can 4get to take?!i think shez a foreigner (jap/korean?),frm da way she speaks.mebbe she cldnt read eng well so she din noe she press da withdraw 50bucks button.b4chasin her i was kinda tempted to keep da money leh aha..but din lor.yep.her bank no money liao la! i haf integrity lah! n wad if shes really poor?haha.but den i haf this feeling she stole da card leh.dunno y..haha.
den we went eat macs da new shaker seaweed fries n dunno-wad-u-call-tt burger!nt bad!oishii!den we went 4 prayer meeting..was late sia.slept in da bus..haha.
came online supp 2 do research on da stupid 20th century fashion proj n newspaper article (fer mgt presentation on monday) but my eye's no good (blur diao i dunno y i cant c properly!) n im not in da mood..
but da article's due monday.we all kno it.but nobody really seems to care.
hw sia!?!!
hmm den da com still dun haf all da folders.i hope they're retrievable.kor's back.but da com gt prob..i think he might juz fix it..i sure hope so!cos all my pics gone leh..knn!
my preCioUsX bu yao zhou!~
hui lai
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