Thursday, May 14, 2009

What makes us human?

Haha, today I'm blogging about LOVE!

Came across the video below while I was searching for songs to feed my music needs[yeah, I'm relaxing a lil after my 3rd paper- Marketing, which I think I probably will fail..=( 3 down, 4 more to go!] =)

Posted this video up in Facebook then Jeff commented on it and while replying his comment, I got motivated to search for love quotes because I remember coming across this quote "As long as you have love, you still have hope".. Then while searching to see who said that, I came across this other quote as well which I heard somewhere which is:

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"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." -St. Augustine

now I know who said that quote! LOL. and then I read on more quotes:

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”- Jim Morrison

I think this is rings true for many people who hide their sufferings, tuck away their painful memories, their emotions.. They pretend that bad things that happened to them never happened at all because it's easier that way, easier to forget. I do that too.. But I also believe with adversity comes great strength and understanding. Everything good or bad is an experience arising from your choice and we all can learn from it, and it'd shape you to be a better person, IF you let them.. But more often then not, we are driven by my emotions and it may all be too much to deal with sometimes.. =/ So it's really important that we continue changing our mindset, be optimistic, to hold our sanity because sometimes, the world is really a freaking hard place to live in..


(Random but right now I'm going to throw in my own quote (inspired by sociology LOL I think it's GOLD!) just cos it seems so relevant to the above statement:

"Alienation. Anomie.. What makes us human can make us inhumane too .."
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HAHA.. What I said above this quote of mine is what I've come to realise, but I'm still trying to apply/make this revelation something permanent in my life. I know I'm an emotional person. But someday, I want to be more than that..

That's why my To-Do's during the holidays is to read personal development books that trains you to better take control of your mind.. To stretch it. We humans sadly, don't utilise the full capacity of our minds (most of the times I have a lazy brain) I want to take myself to a whole new level and be a strong minded person not ruled by my emotions but by my mind. It'd do me good, because I know the value of a changing mindset, and of the mind..

I'd also like to read that book Ziquan lent me as well as books by behavioural scientists? I saw Lie To Me today on MioTV preview (it lets you watch 1 full episode as preview) and it was freaking cool how behavioural scientists read people by their gestures and facial expressions. When people lie, they exhibit rather stable patterns of gestures/facial expressions.. How cool is that? It' d be a freakin interesting read I think, a book studying on gestures and facial expressions.. Ahh,
I'm sure it's available in the market but I'm too lazy to search for it now, so I'm saving it for later. HAHA. I hope I can get a hold of these reads. Maybe I'd read them when I'm in the US but then I hope my housemates won't think I'm crazy over these selections of books! LOL. HECK.

Ahh, anyway, while being a self-professed homebody during this studying season, I realised some things about myself and how I am in studying (OMG, after studying sociology, you just realise taken for granted stuffs!)
  • My consciousness of time reduces my efficiency of studying.
    (esp after a full day of studying) "Oh XX AM already! So late, time to sleep!" seems familiar to you?
    The habits just sets in, it's almost like a conditioning. An excuse.. Of course we have to sleep lah but sometimes during the studying period can sleep abit later to study what.. but after realising this, I seem to be in better control and able to focus more once I get past this conditioning.. Mealtime conditioning still applies though. (LOL)
  • My studying style is writing, visuals and reading.
    Drawing tables, mindmaps and writing makes things easier for me it seems.
    Dr. Or (my sociology teacher) calls this "active learning".. It seems to help commit things into memory more I guess. Discussions/interactions about concepts with friends/tutors helps too because it creates a memory. Guess that's why some study groups and peer discussions are advocated.
  • What motivates me is:
    - My knowing whatever I'm doing now is for myself, for my future.. Now's The Only Time I Know
    (my MSN nick lol)
    - Friends' JIAYOUs (kinda pioneered by Louis LOL) and concerned smses/msges or mutual
    rantings/complaints about studying (knowing other people are going through the same thing helps~
  • What's not helping is:
    - Distractions whether shows, magazines or people
    - Parents' nagging
I can't wait for exams to be over.. To a certain extent, now I feel so alienated. a stranger looking in on the world.. I want to go away to US to work right now.. To live life in a new country (although technically I'd be a stranger there too -.-) it's a form of escapism from Singapore. I'm really kinda sick of things here.. and I'm SO thrilled to go there because I know I'd learn alot.. Never been away from my family to work elsewhere before. so I know this is a damn valuable experience. I really hope God can see me through to be able to go there (hope the Swine Flu won't ruin things!!), to learn, experience the max I can and grow from it.. I hope I'd not be overtly homesick, hope that I can go there in one piece and back!! =)

Right now, I just gotta carry on studying.
Wasted one day slacking already T.T (but kinda need this because I've been really studying my ass off for the past few days. never did study or be focused this much).. sigh. UOL exams are so hard.. 8 more days of misery till its over!

AZA AZA FIGHTING IRIS!~♫

HOOH. How I miss blogging and its strangely feel good characteristics but...

Signing off for now.. =(


1234.. Dedicated to my friends, family and myself, all of whom I love ~♥ !!
(Really, thanks for touching my life, for your encouragements, care, love..
for accepting and making me realise the person I am, for sharing my joys, burdens and pain ~) ;D

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