To the Moon and Back
today pastor preached about Breaking the Curse of the Debt..
it was totally relevant man because earlier this afternoon, I borrowed $20 from my younger brother!
damn pathetic I know, but I'm really that broke. I borrowed from him because I don't wanna withdraw anymore from my ATM, and because I don't wanna wipe out all my money in my ATM.. =(
thank God I can still ask money from my parents, or else I'd be really be beyond broke. however, I really hate doing so because they seem abit.. reluctant (?) whenever I ask them? so I better find a job man. but I'm fussy, I can't teach tution for nuts, and I'm worried that I won't be able to handle my studies and everything else.. these coming weeks I'd be busy lah because Fright Night, my SRC event is approaching! there's the chalet and the outings with dearest Momo as well.
The thing about online buys =(
anyhow, earlier this afternoon, two parcels arrived and they were my shopping buys. the first parcel contained 2 skinny pants and a top. bloody hell. I don't know I'm too fat or what. they're too small and not fitting for me. I felt bloody pissed and dumb for wasting money on such worthless online buys.. I don't know what to do with those bloody buys that don't fit. must fan nao what to do with them. it's such a waste and I felt really guilty for my already bursting cupboard.. they'd then sit ducks in my cabinet for months. although I wanna sell them, it's so mafan and I lack the place to do so. so I guess I should really really learn my lesson this time and curb my online shopping! really determined to put my money to better use next time, like to save for the future, to go on a holiday with friends or on courses for personal development (Language, Music whatever!) gah! anyway, the second parcel was the satin dress I ordered! now I have 5+ satin tops/dresses in my collection already, yay! the dress is supposed to be Satin Blue, but I don't know the seller cockeye or what. she said its satin blue- but it's obviously satin turquoise. -.- GAH. but it fits nicely lah so I really don't mind because I'm a fan of satin.. =I
on another note,today I finally filed my notes (except Marketing which is too complicated) and bought my long wallet at the Robinson Sale! it's so worth the money man. I finally got a wallet I like and can finally stop using my sister's!!
Random Thoughts
- Darren Hydes is gorgeous! He has long hair in the Savage Garden video To The Moon and Back and he's so pretty!! the song is beautiful too. it's a classic. I think I heard Darren's gay? such a pity...=(
- I thought about what I said to Zheng Bang in the bus today and I reflected on things.
and my take is that although criticism from people is welcomed, you choose your actions, what you want to be. ultimately, it's all up to YOU of course. society constantly influences you into your actions, but the individual makes the decision (okay, here's what happens to me when I take sociology! now I try to speak like a sociologist, lol!) .. in addition, if people dislike you OR they claim/say you are like this when you don't think you are, I feel that it's really alright because YOU know the truth, that you did no wrong, that you aren't what they say you are, and that the people whom you love knows and supports you, that's what that matters, because afterall, you are only answerable to yourself and God. having said that, on another hand, of course if you're wronged (sounds like the LP incident), it feels like crap. but ultimately, I believe one should try not to take negative things to heart because you and the people who loves you are certain of where you stand..people are not perfect, and not everyone would be kind to you and like/love you.. at this point I feel kinda enlightened. perhaps its my age catching up on me. I'm becoming wiser! LOL. but I hope this is not momentary enlightenment, and that this is something I'd always remember to keep a positive mind and heart! =)
- The above point was more relevant to life, but it's also relevant to "my enlightenment of how I view love should be".. to elaborate, I spoke to a male friend about BGRs recently. he's a ladies man, and he said a fortune teller once told him about how he might have troubles/issues with his gfs because he is a ladies man - his gfs might be jealous or whatever when he hangs out too much with girls.
at some point, I said to him that if I am his gf or whatever, I won't be jealous because if I'm really his gf, (but our "love" must reach a certain level first LOL!) maybe it's cos I'd like to believe that he only loves me and that his heart belongs to me. knowing him, I said that I'd understand he's a ladies man afterall, so putting pressure on him or blasting him for that is being unreasonable because some guys are just well, a ladies man! they are just more inclined to having girl friends, just like how some girls have have so much guy friends! and.. afterall, isn't love built on trust? and it's like only talking to girls lorh, not like they're flirting or what (that is too much already). . yeah. so that's my view lah. but nowadays it's hard to say lah! because guys are so hua xin and all.. and love is complicated and fulla uncertainty sometimes.. so yeah lorh.. and LOL, since I haven't had the experience of loving someone yet, so maybe when I do, I'd really would be jealous? who knows. it's hard to say. but that's my belief lah. GAHA.
it was totally relevant man because earlier this afternoon, I borrowed $20 from my younger brother!
damn pathetic I know, but I'm really that broke. I borrowed from him because I don't wanna withdraw anymore from my ATM, and because I don't wanna wipe out all my money in my ATM.. =(
thank God I can still ask money from my parents, or else I'd be really be beyond broke. however, I really hate doing so because they seem abit.. reluctant (?) whenever I ask them? so I better find a job man. but I'm fussy, I can't teach tution for nuts, and I'm worried that I won't be able to handle my studies and everything else.. these coming weeks I'd be busy lah because Fright Night, my SRC event is approaching! there's the chalet and the outings with dearest Momo as well.
The thing about online buys =(
anyhow, earlier this afternoon, two parcels arrived and they were my shopping buys. the first parcel contained 2 skinny pants and a top. bloody hell. I don't know I'm too fat or what. they're too small and not fitting for me. I felt bloody pissed and dumb for wasting money on such worthless online buys.. I don't know what to do with those bloody buys that don't fit. must fan nao what to do with them. it's such a waste and I felt really guilty for my already bursting cupboard.. they'd then sit ducks in my cabinet for months. although I wanna sell them, it's so mafan and I lack the place to do so. so I guess I should really really learn my lesson this time and curb my online shopping! really determined to put my money to better use next time, like to save for the future, to go on a holiday with friends or on courses for personal development (Language, Music whatever!) gah! anyway, the second parcel was the satin dress I ordered! now I have 5+ satin tops/dresses in my collection already, yay! the dress is supposed to be Satin Blue, but I don't know the seller cockeye or what. she said its satin blue- but it's obviously satin turquoise. -.- GAH. but it fits nicely lah so I really don't mind because I'm a fan of satin.. =I
on another note,today I finally filed my notes (except Marketing which is too complicated) and bought my long wallet at the Robinson Sale! it's so worth the money man. I finally got a wallet I like and can finally stop using my sister's!!
Random Thoughts
- Darren Hydes is gorgeous! He has long hair in the Savage Garden video To The Moon and Back and he's so pretty!! the song is beautiful too. it's a classic. I think I heard Darren's gay? such a pity...=(
- I thought about what I said to Zheng Bang in the bus today and I reflected on things.
and my take is that although criticism from people is welcomed, you choose your actions, what you want to be. ultimately, it's all up to YOU of course. society constantly influences you into your actions, but the individual makes the decision (okay, here's what happens to me when I take sociology! now I try to speak like a sociologist, lol!) .. in addition, if people dislike you OR they claim/say you are like this when you don't think you are, I feel that it's really alright because YOU know the truth, that you did no wrong, that you aren't what they say you are, and that the people whom you love knows and supports you, that's what that matters, because afterall, you are only answerable to yourself and God. having said that, on another hand, of course if you're wronged (sounds like the LP incident), it feels like crap. but ultimately, I believe one should try not to take negative things to heart because you and the people who loves you are certain of where you stand..people are not perfect, and not everyone would be kind to you and like/love you.. at this point I feel kinda enlightened. perhaps its my age catching up on me. I'm becoming wiser! LOL. but I hope this is not momentary enlightenment, and that this is something I'd always remember to keep a positive mind and heart! =)
- The above point was more relevant to life, but it's also relevant to "my enlightenment of how I view love should be".. to elaborate, I spoke to a male friend about BGRs recently. he's a ladies man, and he said a fortune teller once told him about how he might have troubles/issues with his gfs because he is a ladies man - his gfs might be jealous or whatever when he hangs out too much with girls.
at some point, I said to him that if I am his gf or whatever, I won't be jealous because if I'm really his gf, (but our "love" must reach a certain level first LOL!) maybe it's cos I'd like to believe that he only loves me and that his heart belongs to me. knowing him, I said that I'd understand he's a ladies man afterall, so putting pressure on him or blasting him for that is being unreasonable because some guys are just well, a ladies man! they are just more inclined to having girl friends, just like how some girls have have so much guy friends! and.. afterall, isn't love built on trust? and it's like only talking to girls lorh, not like they're flirting or what (that is too much already). . yeah. so that's my view lah. but nowadays it's hard to say lah! because guys are so hua xin and all.. and love is complicated and fulla uncertainty sometimes.. so yeah lorh.. and LOL, since I haven't had the experience of loving someone yet, so maybe when I do, I'd really would be jealous? who knows. it's hard to say. but that's my belief lah. GAHA.
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