twenty one: *smellin death*

manz..i dunno wad 2 sae dude..

ryan's mom's aunt juz died..n dere4 he cant meetup tmr 2 discuss abt da stupid aloha thing..n part of me feels so guilty leh..altho itz nt my fault or n e thing(wah feel bad sayin tis 2.sorries!!X_x") haiz..may she rest in peace.i think ryan is pretty sad too..i can put myself in his shoes n i'd kno hw i feel-LOST.

reminds me of tt time when grandpa died.i din even shed a single tear.n den i asked myself(admist my crying relatives)m i inhuman?den later..i realised my feelings r slow n i did cry later on n walau!! it was gross lorh!-cry until snoot come out plz.EWW..haha..his death was too sudden i guess.[hmm as im typin tis,i wonder if his spirit still lingers in our household..wOo~~]

all ttz left of rememberence of him r pictures(family pics n all),memories(lyk tt time when im small i can nv 4get he bring me dwnstairs, den @ da lift dere my last finger kena snapped by da lift!!ahhaha..den was lyk angry @ him 4eva manz..WAHAH retarded..another fond memory is hw he used 2 bring us all[bro esp] dwnstairs 2 walkwalk i think den later we wanna shit we will lyk shit in newspapers n he will lyk wipe our asses 4 us LMAO..omg..walau R[A] sorrie 4 gross content?!ee i duwan n e body near my ass man..kao ok larh but last time buay paiseh mah!! no ability 2 wipe my own ass too..LMAO.was really small..=z) ,his pic @ his room beside grandma(nv seen her b4 she was dead b4 i was born) n his reclining chair..

hope hez happy in heaven..
he lived til lyk 100+ or wadeva.omg dunno if ttz called blessed(cos itz a cruel world)
but think he went heaven
lols.
-presumed so larhs

yea..n e waez,tmr's meetin up 2 discuss suddenly is lyk nt as exciting le..lols.ryan da clown not goin marh!den lamb oso pei gf.(cannot c his lamb face 2 make me LMAO!)haha..den mijuan think shez goin..but dunno abt percilla,baoyun n all..tis thing is so nt so unplanned lorh!!

dun think we even noe wad we gonna do?! (KAOPEH) n cos ryan is nt goin,nobody can bring da ball..n kel is lyk 2 freakin lazi 2 bring so mebbe i haf 2 b da 1 bringing (my broz ball) ..=/ *DAMMIT!* yea..wadeva larhs.itz lyk so paiseh 2 bring da ball n carry it ard.laychey man!n lyk ahaha wth a girl bringing ahaha..mebbe i shld wear my bro'z bball clothes 4 fun n mebbe act lyk a bballer butch LMAO..

budden if we gonna cycle die liao lorh.retarded 2 cycle wif bball clothes.dunno wad im gonna wear tmr mans..lols.haiz!n hope dere will b sm serious discussion tmr cos ttz da main cause manz..hope we haf fun too..hope i wun feel no mood 2 exercise cos im havin my stupid period..=X i juz feel so freakin lazi havin my period..

yea..i shall quit complainin since sm1 obviously think im complaining n i shld b contented wif wad i haf..i m lorh!i haf compassion 1 ok..lols..oh mans.i shld contribute 2 da society..n nt b doin nth typin tis stupid shit..