13.NYDC
manz..i dunno im hiding frm da world...how crappy.2nite itz pathetic.
u kno smtimes i think tt i enjoy ur time so much(sorta)in da dae,tt @ nite,it'd b sucky?itz lyk mebbe hw God balances things?yea i alwz believe tt:
a balance in things..
n e wae,currently,i feel im quite blessed cos smtimes i feel tt i'm really quite lucky..
lyk nv kena knocked down by car/drop things @ Country Manna yet n stuff lyk tt..(i kno derez smmore but i cant rmb da rest)
haha..den tis made me think abt da balance in things again(yaya i kno life is nt a scale)i think cos my life is sorta so blessed rite nw,in future i'd either die horriblely,lead horrible life,b disfigured/disabled n all..afterall, God is partial..
haiz sua..im so sian sia!until can die lorhz,juz now was talkin 2 sasha den she lyk so busy den i jk larh sae "dun talk 2 me lorh!!dun talk...!!wah so busy ar" (lyk da wae she saez smtimes lol) den she thot i angry hahas sae dunno wad "oei dun liddat larh"
den i "wah she think i angry meh?den i asked her 4 keshia's profile 2 view(cos dey were talkin abt it LMAO)den she ask me go link link herself..wah heck care abt me sia.damn gd..den manz i was lyk so sian i din wanna talk 2 her n e more.was thinkin of blockin her but wtfh i muz as well juz APPEAR OFFLINE cos nobody's gonna notice anywaez =< n i dun wanna appear pissed off when i m..haha dun wanna admit it.
haiz.miss my Godbro..itz lyk altho he so-called "treats me lyk his limewire",@ least he talkz 2 me continously n gifz me care?lol nt lyk other ppl..itz lyk superficial conversations.sianz.n when talkin 2 sasha online,itz nt as fun as when chattin wif her on da phone or in real life.
feelin screwed up nw manz.m so sian.itz lyk life is so farkin long n i dun feel lyk livin in it n e more.i wonder if dere're greener pastures out dere cos living in sg seems so hell n boring n sian.derez juz so many limited things 2 do sia.all i wanna do is escape.darn i wish im marilyn studyin in aus..
im juz so tired n sad../= hahas..n e wae mijuan so nice sms me when her msn gt prob 2 sae nitez.so cute=) sasha did 2 but juz 2 sae her msn gt prob.cant b bothered 2 reply.sian.n walau!tmr still gt wrk.haf 2 face farkin customerz again.haiz..
smtimes i wish i live in da RO world..all i gotta do is attempt 2 save da world,n make it a better place.@ least u gain sm pride in doin so.wah *SHUANG* 2
NO NEED 2 STUDY,NO NEED 2 WRK,NO WORRIES ABOUT SCH&R/S.
LIFE IS SIMPLE.
juz kill enemy,get money,save da world..haha..gosh i kno im so childish 2 even think of this-hell.i think im a lil disillusioned nw =( miss da stuff i used 2 do!lyk RO,RE,FF!!all those games..they r a form of escape frm tis world..
haiz.sianZ..i think im feelin quite Lonely now..lyk da song by Akon haha.tt song is cute..n altho im feelin lonely now,PLZ NOTE TT IM NT DESPERATE.so i no need matchmakin services,thank u v much.haiz. rite nw,suddenly, im missin alot of ppl..my siblings n all.dey're all gone xcept Ian my younger bro.
sis went 4 camp n i'll later go into an empty rm.it getz pretty scary smtimes..=x n altho i wish 4 my own rm cos shez so messy,im glad i haf her-even tho her temper sux haha..hm,n bro went 4 army(2 wks later den bkout *sob*),den godbro oso dunno go whr..=/ feel so alone..haiz later i gonna c if my SE data transfer thingy can wrk again anot..or else it'd b fuckin a waste of my money..fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!GRRRRR..
*FRUSTRATION*
n e wae..only gd thing tt happened 2dae is bought a really sweet gift 4 sasha..haha.hope shez happy..hope she doesnt read tis.lol.haiz..how i wish on my b'dae i'll haf frenz 2 celebrate wif in a warmhearted wae,hope every1 i kno will b dere.it'd b so sweet.damn im so envious..
haha.sad tt in my life altho i wan those lovely b'daez lyk on tv whr da b'dae girl cries cos shez so touched..wah..dunno leh my b'daez r either 4gotten/uncelebrated/feels unimpt(ya i kno itz nt a big deal larh!)cos it unfortunately falls on da examination dates whr every1 is busy lyk hell..i haven really xperienced b'dae suprises yet in my life..lolx.i shld b happy wif wad i haf in life but im nt.darn.im so emotional over nth.fucking shit brains!!
lol..n another gd thing tt happened is marilyn treated us NYDC(wah she gt wads of 50 dollar bills..da NYDC bill lyk came up 2 70+?) haha..i really appreciate it..kinda miss her if she went back again den it'd b 2-3 mths b4 she returns lol.her comin back reminds me of sm stuff lyk our conflicts..she said she hated me last time.tis i cant realli rmb.i think @ tt time i oso din kno n was stupidly thinkin tt pat n her were my frenz.im so silly.fark i hate myself.
wherever i go,even if i think i've changed,i didn't i think.im still da irritating asshole who irritates da fuckin hell outta ppl tt dey fuckin hate my guts.n fuck im tired of tis lol kau im lyk usin vulgarities.
how i wish i can slp n dream n nv b waken up again..=/
wth is wrong wif me sia lol.im pathetic.
if marilyn reads tis shez gonna laugh @ me sia n think wad a pathetic soul i m..
im havin those emotional crazed moments again....sianz.
shitholes.
thinkin of my bolster now.my only source of comfort..=>
u kno smtimes i think tt i enjoy ur time so much(sorta)in da dae,tt @ nite,it'd b sucky?itz lyk mebbe hw God balances things?yea i alwz believe tt:
a balance in things..
n e wae,currently,i feel im quite blessed cos smtimes i feel tt i'm really quite lucky..
lyk nv kena knocked down by car/drop things @ Country Manna yet n stuff lyk tt..(i kno derez smmore but i cant rmb da rest)
haha..den tis made me think abt da balance in things again(yaya i kno life is nt a scale)i think cos my life is sorta so blessed rite nw,in future i'd either die horriblely,lead horrible life,b disfigured/disabled n all..afterall, God is partial..
haiz sua..im so sian sia!until can die lorhz,juz now was talkin 2 sasha den she lyk so busy den i jk larh sae "dun talk 2 me lorh!!dun talk...!!wah so busy ar" (lyk da wae she saez smtimes lol) den she thot i angry hahas sae dunno wad "oei dun liddat larh"
den i "wah she think i angry meh?den i asked her 4 keshia's profile 2 view(cos dey were talkin abt it LMAO)den she ask me go link link herself..wah heck care abt me sia.damn gd..den manz i was lyk so sian i din wanna talk 2 her n e more.was thinkin of blockin her but wtfh i muz as well juz APPEAR OFFLINE cos nobody's gonna notice anywaez =< n i dun wanna appear pissed off when i m..haha dun wanna admit it.
haiz.miss my Godbro..itz lyk altho he so-called "treats me lyk his limewire",@ least he talkz 2 me continously n gifz me care?lol nt lyk other ppl..itz lyk superficial conversations.sianz.n when talkin 2 sasha online,itz nt as fun as when chattin wif her on da phone or in real life.
feelin screwed up nw manz.m so sian.itz lyk life is so farkin long n i dun feel lyk livin in it n e more.i wonder if dere're greener pastures out dere cos living in sg seems so hell n boring n sian.derez juz so many limited things 2 do sia.all i wanna do is escape.darn i wish im marilyn studyin in aus..
im juz so tired n sad../= hahas..n e wae mijuan so nice sms me when her msn gt prob 2 sae nitez.so cute=) sasha did 2 but juz 2 sae her msn gt prob.cant b bothered 2 reply.sian.n walau!tmr still gt wrk.haf 2 face farkin customerz again.haiz..
smtimes i wish i live in da RO world..all i gotta do is attempt 2 save da world,n make it a better place.@ least u gain sm pride in doin so.wah *SHUANG* 2
NO NEED 2 STUDY,NO NEED 2 WRK,NO WORRIES ABOUT SCH&R/S.
LIFE IS SIMPLE.
juz kill enemy,get money,save da world..haha..gosh i kno im so childish 2 even think of this-hell.i think im a lil disillusioned nw =( miss da stuff i used 2 do!lyk RO,RE,FF!!all those games..they r a form of escape frm tis world..
haiz.sianZ..i think im feelin quite Lonely now..lyk da song by Akon haha.tt song is cute..n altho im feelin lonely now,PLZ NOTE TT IM NT DESPERATE.so i no need matchmakin services,thank u v much.haiz. rite nw,suddenly, im missin alot of ppl..my siblings n all.dey're all gone xcept Ian my younger bro.
sis went 4 camp n i'll later go into an empty rm.it getz pretty scary smtimes..=x n altho i wish 4 my own rm cos shez so messy,im glad i haf her-even tho her temper sux haha..hm,n bro went 4 army(2 wks later den bkout *sob*),den godbro oso dunno go whr..=/ feel so alone..haiz later i gonna c if my SE data transfer thingy can wrk again anot..or else it'd b fuckin a waste of my money..fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!GRRRRR..
*FRUSTRATION*
n e wae..only gd thing tt happened 2dae is bought a really sweet gift 4 sasha..haha.hope shez happy..hope she doesnt read tis.lol.haiz..how i wish on my b'dae i'll haf frenz 2 celebrate wif in a warmhearted wae,hope every1 i kno will b dere.it'd b so sweet.damn im so envious..
haha.sad tt in my life altho i wan those lovely b'daez lyk on tv whr da b'dae girl cries cos shez so touched..wah..dunno leh my b'daez r either 4gotten/uncelebrated/feels unimpt(ya i kno itz nt a big deal larh!)cos it unfortunately falls on da examination dates whr every1 is busy lyk hell..i haven really xperienced b'dae suprises yet in my life..lolx.i shld b happy wif wad i haf in life but im nt.darn.im so emotional over nth.fucking shit brains!!
lol..n another gd thing tt happened is marilyn treated us NYDC(wah she gt wads of 50 dollar bills..da NYDC bill lyk came up 2 70+?) haha..i really appreciate it..kinda miss her if she went back again den it'd b 2-3 mths b4 she returns lol.her comin back reminds me of sm stuff lyk our conflicts..she said she hated me last time.tis i cant realli rmb.i think @ tt time i oso din kno n was stupidly thinkin tt pat n her were my frenz.im so silly.fark i hate myself.
wherever i go,even if i think i've changed,i didn't i think.im still da irritating asshole who irritates da fuckin hell outta ppl tt dey fuckin hate my guts.n fuck im tired of tis lol kau im lyk usin vulgarities.
how i wish i can slp n dream n nv b waken up again..=/
wth is wrong wif me sia lol.im pathetic.
if marilyn reads tis shez gonna laugh @ me sia n think wad a pathetic soul i m..
im havin those emotional crazed moments again....sianz.
shitholes.
thinkin of my bolster now.my only source of comfort..=>
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