Innocence, Back in Those Days
I went to school today to get my prelim scripts (cannot wait ma) + meet the spree-er to get my items + seek help in formatting my laptop + study and viola! When I got my paper I found out I passed 2 papers out of 3! (50 marks, and so, for both- 2nd lower class somemore!) . Failed one (15%) and the 4th one haven't get back yet..
It came as a TOTAL shock cos I'd never have expected it.. Am so glad, pleasantly suprised cos honestly (I'm not kidding) I didn't put my 100%, this is not the most I can put in, can say maybe not even 80%? Really never study much at all cos things happened that time and I was busy trying to resolve it. But I still manage to get not bad results. But should not let that get into my head and get cocky and let my guard down. Time is crucial now. Prelims is nothing compared to the finals!!
On my way to school I also received a call from Promedia (that does the Green Book!) that I'm shortlisted (may get a chance) and that I'm lucky for that.. Got asked a bunch of questions but my freaking phone got problem I can't talk to the caller cos I can't hear anything at all =( damn annoying. then cos I mass send out my resumes I din know which company called me. and I couldn't hear (and paiseh ask them spell after asking them 2 times) the company nor the person's name.. yeah, then the phone problem happen.
Walau. Could've died. It's like being given some hope about winning something (getting a winning lottery?) and then you died. Called back and it was the bloody fax machine (I think) Mann~ why she didn't use normal phone line!? Why my phone so sucky?! When I reach school (after like 30+ more mins. Imagine my anxiety?!) I immed after putting down my bag go search for the no. they used to call me to track the company down. when I called back the HR Dept was having meeting so I can't contact them at all. Then by the time it was 6+ office close I guess. GAH!
Frustrated.
But ok lah the good news of my prelim results made things better..
and also the fact that my laptop can start now after being formatted (thanks to the spree-er who's very nice to help me!). That's great cos my laptop works waayyy faster than the desktop.. (but still quite slow cos 500+ RAM. outdated already) BUT!! I lost all my precious files. I did back up my system but that's so long ago.. T.T so most of my new files I acquired after the backup are gone!! ALL GONE!! *crumbles and dies*
The music files and the likes. I can't sync my Ipod unless I get them back!! Means I'm stuck with my old songs and can't sync the new ones in! that's like music deprivation/death for a music nut like me =( THE DEATH SENTENCE!!
GAH.
Anyway, whatever. that aside, I went home to new earrings having arrived (YAY!) and my W-2 Form finally arrived! Means I can apply for tax refund already! but bloody hell, I lost my Social Security card =( I searched everywhere but couldn't find it.. Then I asked Eunice for help.. I think I gotta go to the US Embassy for help.. (walau so annoying to deal with this during study period)
During the search I came across my box fulla letters, cards, my old diary, my kindergarten report card.. I opened them and read it and found myself smiling and laughing to the childish/innocence/compliments (you're my best friend! you're so nice/weird/blur/funny/always cheering me up yadayada)/talking bad about other people from friends.. everything) and it made me smile.. and remember the innocence then, and maybe how I am as a person, how they came into my life and mine to theirs, what they said about me that makes me remember who I am then and even now (where I kinda don't know myself anymore) I guess.. I didn't really change at all.. I'm still mostly, kinda the same Iris..
Admist that "feel good" feeling, I also felt a tinge of sadness.. I missed my friends and wondered how we lost contact and they just am no longer in my life, and neither of us really did anything.. I miss Yoko/Vernisar. I saw particularly a letter Yoko wrote me that said I'm like God's gift and she's thankful for me. I can't believe she wrote that. Touches my heart.. and it's quite sad now we're no longer in contact.. =(
When I first met her, and she got assigned to sit next to me, she hated it and tried stopping it. Next thing we know we're best friends and she warmed up to me so fast, like nobody had before (that's what she said) We were so close we even used to write letters to each other.. and call each other best/good friends, that we'd never separate.. Friends Forever!! What happened?
You know, I'd like to think of myself as someone who treasure my friends, but am I really?
Why did we drift apart and stop talking to each other altogether?
I miss them..
Miss them so much I scanned some of my neoprints I dig up.
and I think I'm gonna drop them a FB message and hope they'd reply.. =)
It came as a TOTAL shock cos I'd never have expected it.. Am so glad, pleasantly suprised cos honestly (I'm not kidding) I didn't put my 100%, this is not the most I can put in, can say maybe not even 80%? Really never study much at all cos things happened that time and I was busy trying to resolve it. But I still manage to get not bad results. But should not let that get into my head and get cocky and let my guard down. Time is crucial now. Prelims is nothing compared to the finals!!
On my way to school I also received a call from Promedia (that does the Green Book!) that I'm shortlisted (may get a chance) and that I'm lucky for that.. Got asked a bunch of questions but my freaking phone got problem I can't talk to the caller cos I can't hear anything at all =( damn annoying. then cos I mass send out my resumes I din know which company called me. and I couldn't hear (and paiseh ask them spell after asking them 2 times) the company nor the person's name.. yeah, then the phone problem happen.
Walau. Could've died. It's like being given some hope about winning something (getting a winning lottery?) and then you died. Called back and it was the bloody fax machine (I think) Mann~ why she didn't use normal phone line!? Why my phone so sucky?! When I reach school (after like 30+ more mins. Imagine my anxiety?!) I immed after putting down my bag go search for the no. they used to call me to track the company down. when I called back the HR Dept was having meeting so I can't contact them at all. Then by the time it was 6+ office close I guess. GAH!
Frustrated.
But ok lah the good news of my prelim results made things better..
and also the fact that my laptop can start now after being formatted (thanks to the spree-er who's very nice to help me!). That's great cos my laptop works waayyy faster than the desktop.. (but still quite slow cos 500+ RAM. outdated already) BUT!! I lost all my precious files. I did back up my system but that's so long ago.. T.T so most of my new files I acquired after the backup are gone!! ALL GONE!! *crumbles and dies*
The music files and the likes. I can't sync my Ipod unless I get them back!! Means I'm stuck with my old songs and can't sync the new ones in! that's like music deprivation/death for a music nut like me =( THE DEATH SENTENCE!!
GAH.
Anyway, whatever. that aside, I went home to new earrings having arrived (YAY!) and my W-2 Form finally arrived! Means I can apply for tax refund already! but bloody hell, I lost my Social Security card =( I searched everywhere but couldn't find it.. Then I asked Eunice for help.. I think I gotta go to the US Embassy for help.. (walau so annoying to deal with this during study period)
During the search I came across my box fulla letters, cards, my old diary, my kindergarten report card.. I opened them and read it and found myself smiling and laughing to the childish/innocence/compliments (you're my best friend! you're so nice/weird/blur/funny/always cheering me up yadayada)/talking bad about other people from friends.. everything) and it made me smile.. and remember the innocence then, and maybe how I am as a person, how they came into my life and mine to theirs, what they said about me that makes me remember who I am then and even now (where I kinda don't know myself anymore) I guess.. I didn't really change at all.. I'm still mostly, kinda the same Iris..Admist that "feel good" feeling, I also felt a tinge of sadness.. I missed my friends and wondered how we lost contact and they just am no longer in my life, and neither of us really did anything.. I miss Yoko/Vernisar. I saw particularly a letter Yoko wrote me that said I'm like God's gift and she's thankful for me. I can't believe she wrote that. Touches my heart.. and it's quite sad now we're no longer in contact.. =(
When I first met her, and she got assigned to sit next to me, she hated it and tried stopping it. Next thing we know we're best friends and she warmed up to me so fast, like nobody had before (that's what she said) We were so close we even used to write letters to each other.. and call each other best/good friends, that we'd never separate.. Friends Forever!! What happened?
You know, I'd like to think of myself as someone who treasure my friends, but am I really?
Why did we drift apart and stop talking to each other altogether?
I miss them..
Miss them so much I scanned some of my neoprints I dig up.
and I think I'm gonna drop them a FB message and hope they'd reply.. =)
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