nobody knows for sure

read someone's blog today, and I just kinda cried non-stop..
its like even though tt person is so simpleminded, cheerful (but seemingly insecure, complaining at times), tt person has achieved so much..
at least there was the element of a life "well lived"..

n I look at myself n think of what achievements I have achieved, what I am good at n all..
n I found out I do not know these things..
I have never taken time to reflect on my life, n I have never really thought deeply about things..
n all I can do right now, is feel sorry for myself..

today is supposed to be a happy day, with my last presentation being over n all..
I coma-ed (slept) alot to make up for my staying up to chiong the projs..
but now I feel quite sad..
thank God I can sleep later, n tt would perhaps take my mind off things..


nobody knows for sure
of what is going to happen next
nobody knows what comes
after every other day

but I wish I knew
what to do with my life
I wish I knew
my talents and what I could achieve
finding myself,
needing a direction
how do I live in this world,
n survive the people and the situations?

the future seems uncertain
I pray for relevance